I'm a gamer , just like every other person in the world , or at least a part of most . Some people play video games for the fun of it . Others for portraying that they're more superior than others . Perhaps some might even use video games as a means to escape the darkness of reality .
Everyone faces hardships in life . There isn't a straight road that's perfectly align without any obstacles to go through. The road's always a narrow path , with a lot of problems ahead.
I've been through fire and brimstone myself in the past and even now , and it won't really change much in the future ahead. But it's not about how hard all these problems hit you , it's about the initiative you yourself decide to take to get back onto your feet and continue the journey.
As you're aware about , we only have one life . There isn't any second chances , repeats or restarts. It's just one , and one only. Throwing your life away to something simple that you could've escaped from would make you a quitter , and make you weak . The fact is , you're strong , but you yourself choose to downgrade yourself to the point of weakness and giving up.
If you die , all your hopes , dreams and aspirations all fade away , because there isn't any other way for you to complete the things you wanted to do in the afterlife . There's just no way . Even if you were to resurrect as a ghost , you're still unable to fulfill your dreams and goals as , you don't bring your brain and thoughts with you to the afterlife . You're just an empty shell wondering the face of the Earth with no goals but to find peace.
I play a game called Team Fortress 2 , which is a first person shooter game developed by Valve . There are tons of websites dedicated to the game which has an amazing community within it. I was browsing through the updates on the website and the updates were quite negative.
By negative , I meant about the keyword which was "depression" . So I decided to write this Blog post. That and , this website needs some updating.
Like I mentioned in my second paragraph , everyone faces depression in life . It's inevitable.
Some of the Team Fortress 2 players were writing about committing suicide and running away from home . They will not be able to read this Blog post , as I cannot get in contact with them , but writing this to the masses would be good enough as I could probably convey my message to at least one person facing this situation now.
I've tried everything and anything to escape depression . Small things from praying to God to trying to calm down and not think about the problems at hand to serious things like running away or committing suicide. I have seen the " light " before . It's a dark and hollow road towards oblivion . It's not pretty , having your life force being zapped out of your body and where your mind pictures the image of your soul floating out of your body to a place we humans call the "afterlife" , or "heaven".
But you should realize that there are many people out there that care for you . Family , friends , loved ones , and many more . Even people who might not even know you that closely would be wishing the best for you in all of your days.
Imagine your child having a depression attack , and they decide to end their life . How would you feel ? That's exactly the same feeling that your close ones would feel if you decided to end your life .
Life is beautiful . There's many things ahead , the good and the bad . Regardless , it's an amazing journey ahead. Don't drown in the sorrow and depression , it only makes you lose all confidence and self esteem , which would make you weak . But you're a fighter , so keep fighting the good fight and live your life to the fullest .
Here's to everyone who's having a bad day :
#NeverGiveUp
Hey guys ,
I have some secret projects going on , which are pretty cool . Can't wait to share it , possibly .... if I put some effort into them that is .
Either way , the first thing that came around is that my second semester in college has started . Compared to the first semester , which I only took 2 subjects , I now have to take about...5 if I'm not wrong . Sorry , not enthusiastic about it , at all.
Then again , what choice do I have ? Let's just let that sink into the deep abyss of whatever.
I now have a working desk , at least...a bigger one , which is really cool - as I can now put my laptop on the desk without even having to be paranoid about the worst possible complications that the laptop slips off the cooling fan , falls onto the floor and smashes into a thousand pieces.
Alongside with that , I've also gotten myself my old TV , which now serves as a second screen for me , which makes doing work easier , and more convenient. I mean , don't you find it frustrating when you have to do your homework / assignments but you really want to watch a video without having to move through two separate windows all the time ? Yeah , that was my issue. And now it's solved !
Also , my grandma bought me a camera for my birthday present , but it's mostly for my photography lectures , which I'm taking in college . Pretty sweet birthday present though , I'll be honest with you .
The camera model is Canon 1200 D
These are some of the pictures that I took using the camera. They're not good , but I kinda like them , since I'm just a beginner. No joke , it's my first DSLR camera.
Yeah I still have my trusty teddy bear . Deal with it !
My personal pocket companion ^_^
