Recently , ( like around last week ) , I made an Instagram account . When you make a new social network account , you'll start off with 0 followers / friends / subscribers , 0 following and 0 posts . As for me , I started off with 13 , 000 followers with just 1 post (and followed about 100 other accounts)

News went around ( mainly because I shared a screenshot of my Instagram account on my Facebook ) , and I received a lot of messages . Most of the messages were :

And those were pretty much how most of the messages were . BUT , a few message caught my attention , so I'd like to take some time here to clarify some things .

" You bought followers " 

- First off , no I did not buy any followers . In case you didn't get the memo , I created this account ages ago , and had a LOT of posts on it . I deleted them all because I didn't really like the content , so I just wanted to start fresh . The account was a secret project of mine , isolated from everyone else , which is why no one ever knew about it - until now . I used a lot of hashtags , and most of them were from an app called Tags For Likes !

" At least I have real followers unlike you " 

- Lol . You've been jealous of me since day one , might as well just admit it Brandon . Don't waste your time and come up with lame and retarded insults just to make me feel like a jerk or something . Don't like me , just unfriend me . The button is right there . Heck , you're the one who sent me a request in the first place , after your stinking attitude towards my spam . Again , the unfriend button is right there . You can always argue with me , once you get 13 000 followers . Then I might shut up . Good luck .

I don't need to have a lot of followers or friends to make myself happy . Sure I consider myself a celebrity in my heart , but I don't need the spotlight . I'm just an average human being finding my own path in life at the end of the day , and I'm sure you're all doing the same as well .

I have this Blog which currently stands at 18 000 viewers in total , and that's not a lot . At all ! I don't make any money out of this , it's basically just a hobby . Well , until I get myself a bank account and start doing something . I never expected people to actually read my Blog , but I'm happy that there's someone out there that's interested in reading my stuff . Sure they might not read EVERYTHING , but in the end , I still get a reader count anyways . So thank you !

I have a YouTube channel that I made almost 3 years ago as something to kill off my time . I started off uploading videos of me playing Plants Vs Zombies , to some StarCraft videos and some music videos - in which case I deleted due to copyright ( well , not all of it ) . One day I uploaded a video on a Kamen Rider series in Japan , which got me tons of views - but it did take 2 years , so I really played the patient game ! My YouTube currently 1.1 M viewers and close to 1.3 K subscribers , which is pretty sweet !

My YouTube channel !

Along the way I made a Twitter account because apparently it was a necessity to have one , and since all of my friends have one . It has 6.2 K followers now as this Blog post goes up and if you're wondering how I got that far , I don't know . It could be because this account was once a K-Pop fanbase , and I did get a decent amount of following during that period of time .

I made a SnapChat recently , for purposes of stalking people , and rarely post my own Stories . But hey , you can follow me if you want ! I'm not forcing you !

SnapChat : gregjslow

Before I end this , disclaimer ! This post is not to promote any of my social networks . Yes I did leave a link to my YouTube channel , but you don't have to watch a video or subscribe if you don't feel like it . We all have our own freedom of choosing .

This Blog post is to basically clarify some stuff that has been circling around my news feed on Facebook and some other places , also to just shut the mouth of one jealous human being . Again , the unfriend button is right there mate !

Also , I'm not bragging or showing off , so don't take this the wrong way ! Even if you have very little posts on your Instagram or Twitter , only have about 100 followers , I'll follow you if you update consistently . Doesn't have to be daily , just be consistent , that's all it takes for me to follow you . 

I'm also not a celebrity !!

Congratulations to America that now gay marriage is legal in all 50 states ! Everyone deserves to be happy , whether they're straight , gay , bisexual or transgender !

So this week has been crazy . And by crazy , I mean insane . It's not just a typical week where you head to college , study , try not to blow your money on Starbucks , so on and so on .

On Monday , I took my driving exam . Of course , the nervousness kicked on as usual , especially when there were a lot of others who did very badly. Heck , they didn't even get pass the balancing part on the slope , which is basically - the first obstacle , as I would call it for now . Or maybe section ... yeah , section's good .

The driving exam is divided into three sections . Section 1 is where you have to examine and explain the condition of the car to the invigilator , such as the current condition of the tire , parts of the engine and how to check them and so on . Basically , that part alone consists of around 22 points , which apparently , if you mess up - you fail . It's that simple . And that's what I did . I messed up . In my defense , the invigilator was a bit of a dickhead so , I don't really care .

Section 2 was the basic test drive around the driving range , which meant balancing on the slope , parking and the S and N / Z turn . I was number 38 , which meant a lot of people went before me , and majority of them couldn't get pass the slope . I didn't really think I'd make it , but I made it . Guess I managed to handle the clutch a little bit better than the others. The car wasn't easy to drive though . It had the tough grip handle or something , which meant if you have a very light grip on the steering wheel , it will just rotate back to it's default position , so you'd have to hold it as tightly as you can as if your life depends on it , and then some .

Section 3 was the real deal , which meant driving on the highway . Yes , it was scary . But I was able to zone out of the mental barrier in my head telling me that I wouldn't be able to do it . I can agree for one that the invigilator sitting beside me was a bit intimidating , with his shades on and all . What made things worse was basically the radio and the songs it was playing . Maroon 5 , Wiz Khalifa and others literally blasted off the speakers , for a diversion . Thankfully , it didn't affect me and I was able to keep my concentration on the road rather than my mind going blank and singing lullabies , and I'd probably crash .

Once I drove back to the track , and to the stop location , the invigilator took out my test files and ticked as many "Fails" as he could find . At this point I kinda figured I messed up , as the 5 minute ride wasn't very enjoyable anyways. I was shaking my head in disappointment throughout the whole journey over small mistakes I made. To my surprise , the invigilator ticked the "Passed" box at the end of the whole paper and told me to sign it . My mind , spirit , soul , and everything else was rejoicing .

Although I didn't really pray or anything before taking the test , I guess I'm thankful to God for allowing me to pass this test on my first attempt . Like they say , beginners luck ! Of course , everyone in my family was really happy and I received a lot of Whatsapp messages and phone calls from all over . 

 I had a presentation yesterday which I had 10 minutes to talk about in front of my lecturer and classmates ( thankfully , there's only 9 of them ) - and all 9 of them are literally the best people you can ever find . Compared to my high school friends , who are all assholes , bitches and a lot more . I talked about YouTube being a career , which turned out quite well , especially during the Q & A section , where my classmate Jayne was bombarding me with question after question and I was able to answer them . 

Oh and , I now have a slight crush on someone in my college . Gonna be hard to figure out the person though , for my college mates who are possibly reading this . ( especially you Kez , I gave you my URL ) - lol .

So , last week - I asked my aunt whom lives in London if she could help me get a book by a YouTuber called Connor Franta , and she said okay . So she mailed it , and it came in the mail today ! The whole thing is amazingly beautiful by itself . I've yet to read it , but I really cannot wait . Psyched. Sadly I have mid terms next Monday so I gotta put some effort into studying rather than reading a biography , for the time being .

But here are some images of the book I plucked out of Google Images. There , I said it - it's not my pictures . I'm a bad photographer . 

( Front cover )

( Back cover )

My aunt used Amazon to purchase the book , then shipped it all the way here to Malaysia . Thank you so much ! 

Purchase " A Work In Progress : A Memoir " by Connor Franta by clicking this super long link

Subscribe to Connor Franta : Connor Franta's YouTube

One last thing , it's about my sexuality . To those who really stalk me , I do post occasionally on Facebook that I'm gay , I question my sexuality , I fanboy over guys and a lot more . 

No I'm not gay . I'm just the type of guy who like to fanboy over guys because I look up to them as a source of inspiration for me to pursue my own dreams and passions . I'm not saying that I don't look up to female personas , but there are a lot more male personas that made it big compared to females . Not being a feminist or anything , I'm just stating some facts .

Before I continue with the post , going to clarify something . 

First off , from my previous rant ( that I'm not going to take down ) , I mentioned that it is pointless to send me tons of messages telling me who's at fault and all , well - it kinda was . I was mad , I had enough , I made that post . Done deal .

So yesterday and today , there was a anime convention called "C2AGE" that was held at HELP International School . It's pretty cool because for once , I get to use my student pass to get some VIP access to places that are prohibited to enter . So that's a point on my side .

Went there with my bae , not really . I hate him , a lot . Somehow . Don't kill me . Bye . Kidding . Not really . 

My college classmate showed up ( guy holding the glow stick ) , so I decided to snap a pic when he least expected 

Here's the MSI gaming booth , which is the place where I spent most of my time practicing my Counter Strike skills , and showing off .

Spotted a Kamen Rider , had to take a picture. It's a rare find.

NOTE : This post contains a LOT of cursing , swearing , and fucking about life . I don't give a damn , I'm letting loose. Enjoy

College started for me . But you already know that I presume . With that , I have some small issues with transportation . My "dad" has to go to work , whereas every other fucking person in the world is busy for some god damn reason .

Oh yeah , if you're a family member of mine and is reading this , I'm not taking back what I'm gonna say in this post. Got a fucking problem with that ? Come and see me . 

With that being said , transportation's been hard for me to go to college. So my dad went to get a personal taxi to fetch me there. Fair enough. But , he didn't tell my "mum" . I spilled the beans and my mum blew it all up to my dad , which pretty much fucked up everyone , mostly me.

See , I'm fucking tired of all their fucking pointless bullshit and drama . It fucking sucks being in MY position . Perhaps me dying would be the best , you guys can fucking rot and suffer over my corpse because of all the fucking mistakes you cunt asses made. 

For my mum , give me some space. I deserve my fucking freedom . I couldn't care about the law and whatever custody a pathetic fucking judge gave you over me . My life is mine and mine alone. You can go ahead and call every single friend you have or I have and ask them to consult me , it's not gonna bloody work . 

For my dad , stop fucking leaving me to do all the talking . I don't fucking care if you have a short fuse or something , if you're pissed off , go and fucking kill each other . Leave me the fuck alone . You both don't fucking know how hard it is for ME . I might seem like a selfish little cunt here , but I don't bloody care , I'm just gonna act this way for as long as it fucking takes.

FOR MY AUNT , I know you're gonna be reading this . Don't bother sending me a long Whatsapp message or whatsoever . Just tell your brother ( my dad ) to handle his problems by himself and not fucking involve my ass in this pile of horse shit. Or else , someone's gonna get hurt , and believe me ..... SOMEONE MIGHT EVEN DIE !!

I'm sick of all this , sick of this life . Fuck my mum , fuck my dad , fuck my family , fuck my REAL mum , fuck my REAL dad , fuck everyone , fuck everything . So what if I am blessed with a lot of luxury and many more , it fucking stinks dying mentally because of your two whore shit foster parents going out at each others throats every fucking day because they don't like each other , and involving me along the way . Grow the fuck up , or I'll end your pathetic fucking lives .

Go ahead , call the counselor to help me , call the pathetic shit bag American pastor to consult me . Call my best friends to consult me . It's not gonna fucking work . Fuck you all .

Even God isn't even helping me , so there's no point doing anything right now . Maybe falling down from the 14th floor will finally put me to peace . I don't fucking care about the grief everyone else will feel , they deserve it .

Then again , I'm not an idiot to kill myself , I fear death . I'm just gonna be a better dad , a better husband , a better friend , a better everything than my whole family could ever be , because they're fucking pathetic . 

Did I hurt your feelings ? Oh , my bad . Probably didn't hurt you ENOUGH . Go cringe in a fucking corner over the fucks that has happened in my life and how to solve it .