Where do I begin?

Celebrities are the ones with legions of fans, money, power, and everything else in the world. But of course, with all those perks, comes disadvantages too. Besides having the paparazzi trailing you everywhere, to security problems, and so much more - lies a more serious matter that unfortunately, doesn't get addressed out as often as the others.

That matter, is depression.

It's taken the lives of many people, both celebrities and normal people alike. Unless you're living under a rock, or don't actually use the Internet much (pretty much the same thing in this day and age, really) - you're aware that Chester Bennington, has passed away of apparent suicide.

Chester was the lead singer of the rock band, Linkin Park, which dominated the early parts of 2000 (and still do), having millions of fans that are truly dedicated towards their work, and for good reason. If listened to properly, their music isn't just ordinary songs that you tend to hear on the radio today. You know, like the garbage that The Chainsmokers releases....

We've all had our dark moments in life, and Linkin Park actually did help me throughout those hard times, and I'm forever grateful and thankful for them. 

I got news of Chester's passing once I reached my workplace, and weirdly coincidental enough, was jamming to 'Heavy' on the car radio as I drove to the office today. Listening to their songs again once being aware of Chester's passing gives the listener a deeper understanding of the songs that were released, because they have an extremely deep meaning towards them (that actually makes more sense and hits deep right now). Here are some examples:

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done

Help me leave behind some, reasons to be missed

Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty

Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest.

Leave Out All The Rest.

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I don't like my mind right now, stacking up problems that are so unnecessary

Wish that I could slow things down

I wanna let go but there's comfort in the panic

And I drive myself crazy, thinking everything's about me

Yeah I drive myself crazy, 'cause I can't escape the gravity

I'm holding on,

Why is everything so Heavy?

Holding on, to so much more than I can carry

I keep dragging around what's bringing me down

If I just let go, I'll be set free

Holding on, why is everything so Heavy?

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Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure's all you've known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go. Let it go

Iridescent

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I'd just like to highlight more on 'Heavy' , the song that Linkin Park released a few months back. It was a cry for help, but people didn't understand the meaning of the lyrics back then, until right now - which is too late.

Thank you Chester, for everything that you've done, for all the songs that you made, and for all the lives that you touched and saved, including mine. Of course, this Blog post will be lost in the quantum of space and time itself, but I'll still extend my deepest condolences to his family, friends, fans, and the Linkin Park band itself.

Celebrity deaths don't affect me much because they are someone that I only know through media, but Chester - you were different. It was honestly really hard for me to process all these, and I was really expecting all these to be a hoax and not reality - but I had to face the harsh truth. You will be missed, and your legacy will always live on - through your music, and through the millions of people that you touched and saved with that music. Thank you.

Thank you.

It's been a very stressful month for me . Both college and my personal life has been bombarding me with every single nonsense that it could come up with. Just imagine 100 atomic bombs blowing up in Pearl Harbor at the same time . Imagine the devastation. That's pretty much what I'm going through at the moment.

Firstly , I have an assignment that consists of me covering a total of 12 events for a newsletter that I have to complete in a timespan of one month. It's easier said than done , and it's seriously stressful. A single event could take up two hours , or even your entire day. It's insanity on another level. 

I started off the month by covering one event , which is a sneak preview of my university's new campus that is still under construction. The building should be ready in a few weeks to accept students in , which excludes me as my department ( Communications ) will not be moving into the new building for now. In other words , I'll be stuck in the old building until I graduate , most likely.

Here are some pictures , for your viewing.

Picture of the international school's logo.

I'm not the type to keep track and up-to-date with dates , literally any date in particular. Heck , I tend to forget when my mum and dads birthdays are , so it gets pretty awkward when I finally find out that it's today , and totally forget to wish them. Terrible son ......

Anyways , I'm early. A week and a half early I believe. It basically marks three years since I've had this Blog . I actually started Blogging around early 2011 , but I deleted that Blog and everything that was written in that Blog altogether. But , since that Blog doesn't exist , I'm counting from this one instead. And , many things have happened ever since this Blog started. So , I'm going back down memory lane to all the activities that happened during these three years. 

When you start a story , obviously it has to begin at the beginning of it all. So , it's going to start from my very first Blog post here , all the way to the present. I will not link any of the posts here , so just treat this as a small story that I'm reflecting upon.

In 2013 , that was when I got my first smartphone , the Samsung Galaxy S3 Mini. What does a Mini look like ? Here's the Mini beside the iPhone 4S for comparison .

2015 came along and that was the start of my new chapter in life , college. I didn't have much expectations at first , and it was all mostly just me being the lone wolf walking the path by myself. Of course , it never works out and I made some friends . 

In 2015 , I starred in a YouTube video which received a lot of buzz , and earned my friend the first place in a competition - and that's pretty sick. All the credit definitely has to go to my granduncle for sharing the video to each and every staff member of my college , because he's the CEO .

FUN FACT : I am related to the CEO of the university. I'm not related by blood , but by family name. 

2015 could possibly be the most important year for me , as I figured out what I wanted to become in the future , and I managed to pave myself a road to my own dreams and desires that I hope to achieve. Being in the YouTube video was my very first experience in front of the camera , and it was scary as I was the main actor , in a debut. 

I like to call the whole thing my "debut" on YouTube , which to be fair - I will get to it soon.  

For Christmas , my dad got me a MacBook Pro , for video editing and work , which I should get started on. The only roadblock I have now is my crazy college schedule and all the assignments that I have to complete. 2016 should be fun , as I'm looking forward for what the year has in store for me !

2014 passed by really quick. The first thing I knew was that I was in my final year of high school . It wasn't easy to take in. Reasons was because it's the hardest year of high school , because you're expected to know pretty much everything by then so you'd have to be knowledgeable on everything. I wasn't . The second reason was that it marked the end of high school , and everything I did and made were to be put behind me in the past ~ and I should start anew in a brand new environment.

I didn't accomplish much in 2014 , except that I got fatter. I couldn't control myself , the food in my schools' canteen was really good. I guess that was a small guilty pleasure that I had to attempt to endure but failed miserably at even doing so. Heck , I had 0 intentions of stopping that insane addiction to the food that contained a lot of calories. This could be bad for me in the future , but I'm living in the "now" so I'm going to put all my attention on that instead.

It required 3 months for the authorities to mark my SPM exam paper , which is basically O-levels for those international readers of mine.

It's been a month since I updated this Blog about what's going on with me so far. Basically , nothing much has really been going on. I've been busy with college , family , assignments and exams. Also a fair share of gaming and trying to juggle my time between watching WWE , Supergirl , Arrow , Flash and Vampire Diaries. Yes , I love chick flicks about vampires , don't judge me !

My aunt and uncle came from London last Thursday and today (Sunday) , we headed off to Koh Lipe - with my dad and grandma . In case you didn't know what and where Koh Lipe is , here's a small map for you to look at :

Basically , I hopped onto a plane from Subang to Langkawi island - which is stated on the map.



Once we landed in Langkawi , we took a cab to the Telaga harbor to wait for our boat to arrive to fetch us to Koh Lipe island.



There were a few issues here and there regarding our passports and such but , we pulled through.

Later on , there was the 1 hour journey in a boat to the island. I didn't take any pictures while I was in the boat because everything was really plain and dull , so there wasn't anything interesting going on. But , Flash was showing on the TV , only - dubbed in Thai. Great.....



There are a LOT of people during this time of the year , mainly because this is an amazing place to relax and have some fun - and also the sun is kinda hot so I guess the girls can enjoy tanning themselves , as seen above.

We got to our chalet about 20 minutes later and unpacked our things. Then , a cat decided to pay us a visit and it just sat outside of our chalet. I managed to get some pictures of the cat from the transparent door. And with a little editing ( I edited all the pictures here ) , things can really look ravishing.





We had a short nap then headed out for dinner nearby and did some sightseeing later on.

That's about it for day 1 . I'll be here for 4 days and 3 nights so there will be tons of stuff coming soon :)

Nope , this Blog post is not to address that Justin Bieber has a new album called "PURPOSE" coming out soon . But , I'm very excited for it as it will portray this new and matured Bieber. So far he hasn't disappointed - with Where Are U Now , Sorry and I'll Show You. Excited for more !

I had a small counseling session today with my public speaking lecturer , which I didn't really need but whatever. I'm just gonna clarify and explain stuff based on my own perspective .

First off , why do people have goals and aspirations in life ? What do you want to do / become when you grow up ? Where do you see yourself in 10 years ? You get the point. Why wouldn't you have any goals in life ? Living a life without a goal or purpose is not living at all. Living just because you want to live is pretty much pointless , so you should either change your ways or maybe just end things. I'm not encouraging suicide , don't get me wrong !

I've mentioned this at least a million times before , but I'll still mention it again. I aspire to become big in the entertainment world. Let it be through singing or acting , I just want to be out there. For me , winning an Oscar would be the greatest accomplishment that I could achieve , and I believe that I will make it there one day. No doubt , there are times where my parents could just give me shit about my goals and what not and call them "unrealistic" , but to hell with them. People tend to put other people down because they are pathetic and have too much self pity over their lives. Don't let it drag you down.

Secondly , I wanna have a family. My lecturer went to the point of  " are you sure that everyone wants to get married ? " . Maybe for her , she doesn't want to settle down , yet - or at all. But that's none of my business. Having a family is amazing. Being able to spend the rest of your life with the love of your life and growing old together is the best things in life. I mean , be a little realistic. Would you rather be alone for the rest of your life , or grow old and have someone close to you and remember all the beautiful moments you had together ? Think about it.

Perhaps you've been hurt a lot in life. People whom you trusted at one point in life decided to stab you in the back , and people leaving your life and never returning . But that isn't a good reason to stop loving , or at least try. Being alone isn't always fun , as you don't have anyone to share things with. Maybe some teddy bear or some character you created using the figment of your imagination. But still , being alone is not fun . Logically speaking , it's obvious that doing things in a group is more entertaining. Unless you're really a lone wolf , then that's fine and completely up to your own personal desires.

A love life that I ( and a LOT of people ) desire would be Lily and Marshall from How I Met Your Mother. The reason being is because , they're always together through the thick and thin. And their love is so strong, that nothing could possibly break them apart. Shoutout to the best TV couple out there !

My previous post was all pictures and no talk , in which case - where's the fun in that ? Every picture needs a story . Well , those were just some snaps that my friend and I took using my camera during a class in college.

So , I'm in my second semester in college , and it's super fun . I got to meet new people , new friends , learn new stuff and a lot more . I had to take up a subject called "Malaysian Studies" as it's compulsory for all local students , and I was given an assignment to find out about some history in Malaysia . My team and I settled for Malacca / Melaka , since it's the state that has the most amount of background and culture. It was an amazing experience.

It was a 2D1N study journey , along with a 2 hour drive from my house to Melaka , which isn't fun at all - mostly for me since my dad asked me to drive for the experience of "outstation driving" , and to make things worse - I only had about 4 hours of sleep ,which was not a lot - at all !!

But enough of my ranting . My group comprised of 6 members ( originally ) , but one of my group members decided to bail us , the project , the project and the whole university completely . In short , he moved to a different university. There were 4 boys and 1 girl , with an addition of my dad , and her boyfriend.

Anyways , we visited the Portuguese Settlement and did an interview with a Portuguese guy which is one of my friends distant relatives . He was really nice and friendly , and he answered all our questions clearly and briefly . He even invited us into his house and gave us drinks and told us more about the Portuguese history . In return , we had dinner at his seafood restaurant at night.

We headed to Jonker Street to interview a lady on how to make cendol , which is a very famous local delicacy , which I don't really fancy . FUN FACT : I dislike a LOT of the local delicacies in Malaysia.

I was in charge of recording the interviews , which will be released as soon as I'm done editing them . There is also a vlog that I took for a side note journey log . That as well , will be out once I'm done editing them.

Of course , after a long day of hard work - which paid off I might add , my friends , dad and I went to Hard Rock Cafe where we enjoyed ourselves for the night . It was well earned !

We couldn't do much on the second day , so all we did was visit a submarine museum that my dad wanted to check out , as seen in the last few pictures