I'm not the type to keep track and up-to-date with dates , literally any date in particular. Heck , I tend to forget when my mum and dads birthdays are , so it gets pretty awkward when I finally find out that it's today , and totally forget to wish them. Terrible son ......

Anyways , I'm early. A week and a half early I believe. It basically marks three years since I've had this Blog . I actually started Blogging around early 2011 , but I deleted that Blog and everything that was written in that Blog altogether. But , since that Blog doesn't exist , I'm counting from this one instead. And , many things have happened ever since this Blog started. So , I'm going back down memory lane to all the activities that happened during these three years. 

When you start a story , obviously it has to begin at the beginning of it all. So , it's going to start from my very first Blog post here , all the way to the present. I will not link any of the posts here , so just treat this as a small story that I'm reflecting upon.

In 2013 , that was when I got my first smartphone , the Samsung Galaxy S3 Mini. What does a Mini look like ? Here's the Mini beside the iPhone 4S for comparison .

2015 came along and that was the start of my new chapter in life , college. I didn't have much expectations at first , and it was all mostly just me being the lone wolf walking the path by myself. Of course , it never works out and I made some friends . 

In 2015 , I starred in a YouTube video which received a lot of buzz , and earned my friend the first place in a competition - and that's pretty sick. All the credit definitely has to go to my granduncle for sharing the video to each and every staff member of my college , because he's the CEO .

FUN FACT : I am related to the CEO of the university. I'm not related by blood , but by family name. 

2015 could possibly be the most important year for me , as I figured out what I wanted to become in the future , and I managed to pave myself a road to my own dreams and desires that I hope to achieve. Being in the YouTube video was my very first experience in front of the camera , and it was scary as I was the main actor , in a debut. 

I like to call the whole thing my "debut" on YouTube , which to be fair - I will get to it soon.  

For Christmas , my dad got me a MacBook Pro , for video editing and work , which I should get started on. The only roadblock I have now is my crazy college schedule and all the assignments that I have to complete. 2016 should be fun , as I'm looking forward for what the year has in store for me !

 I'm the type of person that spends most of their time , no - their life on the Internet. The Internet has it's ups and downs , and it's own good and bad. But this Blog post isn't going to be about negativity. As mentioned on the Blog title , this post is entirely about YouTube , and why it's my most visited site ( besides Facebook , Twitter , and many more ).

News flash / Bloopers / Outtakes :

So this is what happened. I had tons of ideas on how I can ruin my family's name even more , and inevitably add more links to videos that subject to my epic fail of a life , until my brain decided to shut down and my eyes stopped functioning. Yes , I fell asleep. 

Highly possible that it's a superior entity in the Universe telling me to stop all this rambling , and upload this weird and messed up Blog update. This is what happens when you're completely clueless on what to write , and you somehow decide that it would be a great idea to kick into overdrive and write about something that you're interested in , but blank on ideas , and then subject to the point on just complaining about how bad your family is , then add links to videos on things that are legitimately how my life goes on by on a daily basis. 

I should start a mini-series in my 10-week Blog posts. Will keep you updated ! Take care !

So this is my fourth Blog post in a 10-week college assignment , and to make things way better , I don't have a title for this Blog post. As a matter of fact , I'm pretty much blank as I'm typing all this down. But just try to go along with the flow , and maybe you'll enjoy reading this. 

Valentines Day just passed by , but it was just another normal day for me in the year. Why ? Mainly because I'm single , so it wouldn't make a lot of sense for me to even celebrate it. Come on , what am I supposed to be cuddling and smooching with ? A teddy bear ? That's just sad . Like , just picture "sad" , only way sadder - like really , really sad. That is utterly depressing for some reason.

Deadpool came along too. Movie of the year ? Not close , not even close. I found the movie really short , even though it was 1 hour and 50 minutes long. Reason(s) are as follows. The trailer itself revealed the whole movie from start to finish. The adult humor and other dumb jokes weren't included inside the trailer , but Deadpool is all about the vulgarities , the non-stop talking and being your typical anti-hero type of superhero. I'm not complaining about the vulgarities and all , as the movie is clearly rated 18+ and in America , it's rated R , as seen below.

I'm not a very picky guy. If there's something in the mainstream , I'll watch / listen to it. It doesn't really matter what kind of genre it is , or whether it's for females only - I'll still give it a shot and see if I like it. And that's exactly what happened.

NOTE : This is a review

Chick flicks - there are many out there. There's Pretty Little Liars , Revenge , and so many more . But somehow , I got addicted to binge watching Vampire Diaries , season after season. Whether or not you think the reasons that I'm going to give below are logically acceptable or just plain bias and stupid , it's all up to your own personal criteria and judgment .

To start things off , I'm not your typical "manly man" that can pack a punch , or even throw a punch. I don't listen to heavy metal to justify myself to being accepted as "cool" in the society. I'm not your typical "manly man" that cares about what kind of parts there are in a car and how much horsepower there is in it. No , I don't care.

I'm more of the feminine side of "man" , and that's totally fine with me. You can go ahead and judge , but that would make you a sad human being with the intentions of downgrading someone else to make yourself feel better , only because your life is a miserable wreck. And no , this has nothing to do with the fact of being gay or bisexual. Sexual preferences has nothing to do with this.

Granted , Stephan Salvatore ( played by Paul Wesley ) and Damon Salvatore ( played by Ian Somerhalder ) are really attractive and super hot guys , I mean - look below :


But there are many other things that are very unique about the whole Vampire Diaries series in general. The first would be the belief in mystical beings. Yes , vampire bats do exist , but do vampires exist ? There are many reports on the Internet about vampire sightings and such , but there really isn't any concrete evidence that a vampire has been spotted. Most of the pictures would feature a circle pointing to a blurry figure , claiming to be some kind of supernatural mythical creature. It appears every single time you search up anything out of the ordinary in general ~ werewolves ( which is in the series ) , Big Foot , Yeti , Slender Man ~ the list goes on , you get the point.

Like any other click flick out there , for instance - The Fault In Our Stars , VD features love , romance , kissing , sex and everything in between. It's just how it works. It's one of the ultimate clichés in every single chick flick that ever existed. Kind of like how jump scares happen in every single horror movie you watch - it's the same concept. But , that's just a small part in it for me.

There's the value of friendship , and being there and caring for the ones you love the most. How it feels to be betrayed by people you trust , sibling bonding , sibling rivalry , and falling for the wrong people . It basically portrays everything you'd encounter in life - except for the part where you turn into a werewolf under every full moon. If that happens to you , please see a witch doctor or a magician.

I'm pretty even Supernatural has all these elements , although I'm not entirely sure about vampires being in the series though - but Vampire Diaries does stand out as being an independent Tv series by itself. Maybe it has some same characteristics as Teen Wolf , but I don't recall there being any gay relationships in VD.

Besides an amazing storyline that is just very addictive and entertaining to keep up with , which is now in it's 7th season - so if you were to start watching it now , it won't really take a long time to catch up , unlike Supernatural which is in it's 11th season , the soundtrack is just beyond perfect. The show doesn't always use mainstream songs for each of their episodes . Instead , they find unique and well written songs from people that you've never even heard of before as a soundtrack for a single episode , and it is guaranteed to blow you away ! Here's sheer proof for you.


Girl Named Toby - Holding A Heart from Season 2 Episode 22 "As I Lay Dying" 




Jason Walker - Echo from Season 3 Episode 2 "The Hybrid"



But to end it all up ( yes I'm sorry that this is a very simple post ) , VD is a really interesting series in a whole and you should definitely watch it if you haven't , well - if you're interested .

Everyone goes through stress. That's just a part of life . It's inevitable. It's there. It will come , and there's no escaping it. Life doesn't go in a straight line , as there are always ups and downs all the way. Life doesn't have an easy route , because everyone started from the bottom. True , some people are born into a rich or a royal family , but their parents had to start somewhere. And wealth doesn't last forever , it will deplete . And eventually , it's just not there anymore. 

The whole purpose of this Blog update is basically to address the situation of people in the state of depression. Yes , life is tough , but don't let that drag you down to the brink of depression. Talk to someone , someone you trust . They'll always be there for you , no questions asked.

Noted , your parents might not exactly understand you , because they grew up in a different environment compared to you , so they'll have difficulties connecting with you. Also , parents are very fond of turning normal discussions into life lectures. It can be a pain , and really annoying * stares at my grandma and dad * but they mean good for you , and that's all that matters at the end of the day.

Just picture a tunnel , a very dark tunnel. You're all alone. That's how life is. Things can be really shallow , dark , alone , scary , and everything in between , but we're all living things , and we all have to go through the same things. 

I speak based on my own personal experiences with depression. It's not fun to go through , obviously . But someway , somehow , life seems to find a way to ruin your day in a very deep way. It's your own will and determination to try and get up on your feet again and keep moving on.

To think that you'd just give up after trying once , you'll never exceed , or even proceed anywhere. You'll just be stuck at the first point in life , without any progress. And without any progress , you cannot move on. Everyone would have completed tons of their own journeys , while you're still contemplating on the fact of if you should try to get back up and complete your own life goals.

Yes , nothing comes easy. Everything requires you to pour in your blood , sweat and tears. But after all that struggle , after all that pain ~ you'll find your rainbow. It's there , but you have to earn it. If you're reading this now , it means you have access to technology. It means you have access to a smart phone , a tablet , or a laptop. You have access to some of the advanced privileges in life. Now think about the people who are not so technologically advanced . They've never seen your favorite childhood cartoons , they've never seen any of the blockbuster movies , and they've never heard any of the newly released music. 

BUT , these people always have a smile on their faces. Why ? Because they're acceptant. They're willing to accept the fact that this is their life , and they're just always grateful to being able to live yet another day on Earth. They're grateful that although their life might not be as good as other people , but they learn to move on. They don't give up , they push themselves. They push themselves to become greater , to become stronger , to have the will to continue with life , until their very last breath. They don't blame anyone , they don't blame fate , they don't blame luck , they're acceptant.

Now , I'm not a mind reader , so those facts won't be exactly accurate , but just reflect back to yourself. You're upset . You were upset. Why ? Is the world unjust to you ? Is your friends unjust to you ? Is your family unjust to you ? Is your coworkers , boss , employees unjust to you ? Is your teacher unjust to you ? Or are you unjust to yourself ?

People will tend to put you down , it's a fact that will happen , no matter how much you try to avoid it ~ it just happens. But don't confine in your own safety bubble. Expand , accept , explore. The world is beautiful . The people are beautiful. There are countless of beautiful things to be seen , to be felt , to be explored. Life is amazing .

Depression always knocks you down , like a rock. It will press against you with all it's might. It will drain you of all hope that you might even be able to recuperate from this situation. But , depression is a just a term that you would use to tell yourself that you're not good enough . That you're weak. That you don't have anyone by your side. You're invisible.

The fact is , you're not invisible. It's just your subconsciousness telling you that everyone is unseen , that you're unseen , and the only thing that's really visible is this dark aura surrounding you . 

See , life works it's course in a very complex way. Things don't always go the way you want them to go. But , hold on to hope. As there is always the light at the end of the tunnel. Challenges will be all around , all over , awaiting for you to succumb to them , and will try it's best to keep you down. But you're not weak , you're strong . Be confident in yourself , and never lose track of hope.

" I'm useless " , " I'm stupid " , " I'm not good enough " . WRONG . You're the best there is. You're the ONLY one there is . Why do you downgrade your own self ? Why do you justify yourself to the brink of where you're not worth existing. Why do you think , that you're useless ? I can repeat this over and over again , that life has it's ups and downs , but that's not the end of the road. Life goes on , till the day you die , and the day after that , and many days to come.

You're made for a purpose. You might think that you're just a regular couch potato , doing nothing significantly useful with the life that's been given to you , and yes - you're not doing anything , BUT ~ why ? The question here is , why ? You have dreams . You can imagine yourself being successful . You can imagine yourself owning everything you've ever wanted in life . But what are you doing to achieve it ? By sulking on your life ? That's a bit low , even for you.

Death is not the answer . It never is. Live . Keep living. Stand up straight , and keep walking. Keep pushing forward. Never say never. Never give up. Hold on to hope. Always say that you can , even though you think that you can't. You're special. You're YOU . You can do anything you want. Don't conform to social norms and be someone that someone else tells you to be. Live your life the way YOU want to live it. 

Live

Love

Light