A week has gone by,WHAT?!

Which technically means,holidays are over

AND,I'm back home.

Overall,my week was fantastic hanging out with my bro and his friends mainly Brandon and Toby who are rally cool dudes who could just put ALL my friends that I know to shame.

#TheHallOfFameInTheWallOfShame

Besides that,the food there was awesome,especially when we had 3 pizzas all to ourselves on the last day.

Friday was a long day,then Saturday was even longer,since I had a birthday party and Justin's music class to accompany him to.Then Sunday went by fast.

Then........

Monday,Tuesday,Wednesday,Thursday,Friiiiiiiiiiiiday,Saturday

Why was Friday the longest?

Well,I went to Lipo Shopping Mall to just hang around (typically to buy new shoes for myself but that never happened) and I met some of Justin's friends.

WHO ARE THEY?

Well,honestly I don't remember their names BUT......three of them are Korean

#HolyCrapDreamComeTrue

I've NEVER seen a Korean guy or girl before.Yes,I was broke to go to BigBang's concert back in 2012 and I didn't know that G-Dragon,Taeyang and Seungri was even in Malaysia until it was too late.

Now I just gotta find out when Taylor Swift comes by :3

Any way we headed to StarBucks where I ordered my FIRST drink from there,ever! No joke!

#Outdated

So I had no clue on what to order because I'm not a real fan YET on mocha or cappuccino so I just went with Justin by ordering Signature Chocolate. Heavenly moments was made there,I can tell you.

If you've tasted Signature Chocolate then you'll know what I mean.If you haven't,you should try it out.

Justin's friend then told us that they were having pizza and Brandon and I were invited so we tagged along.I just ate one slice but I had a big jug of grape juice all to myself.

After that,we headed off to the cinema to buy tickets to watch Non- Stop

The whole plot is technically on a plane hijacking.And here's the funny part.I watched the movie the day before I boarded the flight home :3

While in the cinema I decided to challenge Justin and Brandon to throw a piece of popcorn up in the air and lands in their mouth.I failed and Justin failed.Brandon threw the popcorn to the person sitting behind and Justin and I burst into laughter but quietly.

We also went to the arcade where we spent a LOT of money on,because we needed some fun time.And seriously,the girls walking around the shopping mall are hot,hot,hot ! Surprisingly they didn't have a guy with them........

Any way,Justin gave me an early birthday gift in the form of a Logitech keyboard and I'm really happy about it !! 

I will miss you guys and I hope to visit you again,hopefully without my mum being such a dick in the airport and during the flight.

Take care guys :D

It's been a hectic week,and it's midnight now,yet I'm still writing this just in case if I forget about the content.

Firstly,as you all might have already known,I'm in Jakarta ^.^

It was a hectic Friday,why?

Firstly,school.

Pn Khoo was being her usual self,being long-winded and all.If you don't mind,shut up,just shut up!

Secondly,TONS of homework that I got on the last minute.Guess I won't be doing them any time soon.

So right after school,I was supposed to have a photoshoot,but because I had to rush to the airport,I had to take my pic fast and I look like crap.I won't be sharing the picture any time soon :P

I had to rush to the airport,and my mum was being a total jerk the whole way.

First of all,she kinda screwed up everything on where we should check in and stuff like this,then she kept on telling people "this is my son"

No one cares!

Then,she spend so much time on cosmetics such as perfume I almost needed a wheelchair,and she kept complaining that I walked too slow.

You're walking as f*cking fast as Usain Bolt and you expect me to keep up?

Then inside the flight,of course,total chaos.

She kept talking to me about stuff while I was watching TV and the plane had so many announcements I was tempted to go over to the person who's giving the announcements and just beat them.

Then the drinks and snacks came and I saw Coke.Of course,we all want Coke ( ;) ) ,but my mum was being a complete b*tch and started talking to me like I was a five year old going all "Coke is bad for you,I said NO!!,you're taking orange juice"

Well f*ck you!

Once I reached the same sh*t came up where she went like "Hurry up Gregory.Faster Gregory.You walk too slow". EH,you gonna die tomorrow is it? That's why you're always rushing so fast you expect people to keep up at your speed of 1M MPH is it?

Then I reached my bro's house,and it looks really cool!

There was a guy around named Toby and we became friends in an instant because I mix fast with the cool people.So he's a really cool American dude who loves playing video games and has a thing for WarCraft.COOL !!!!!

Me,my bro and Toby then went to a restaurant and had a wonderful dinner with my bro,my godmother,godfather and Toby with delicious chocolate milkshakes.

Later on we picked up a guy named Brandon.He's American/Australian/Indian/Japanese.....I don't know what he is,but he is a really fun guy to talk with.He uses a lot of big words but I've been through the dictionary so I'm kinda in the green zone for now.

Brandon is TOTALLY into WarCraft (I think that's the only game he has on his laptop) and a custom game in WarCraft named "Gem Tower Defence" 

We had a good stakeout last night and we were up all night playing the XBox and beating up Brandon in WWE because he had no clue on what to do.

I don't know how we ended up in bed,but we somehow ended up in bed.

Today was awesome as well,because I had a really LONG game of LAN Party in WarCraft 3,where we were playing Vampirism the whole time,or so.I think the game lasted about 5 hours,straight.

We were at Toby's house , villa because it was his younger brothers birthday party and we were all invited.

I had my new pink earphones hanging around my neck and I think his brother thought I was gay so he started to ask me why I have pink earphones.To be honest,I don't really see that as a big problem at all.

And my mouse that I use for my computer purposes is an Iron Man mouse,and he was asking about that to,awkward.

Anyway,we didn't join the birthday party,instead we just stayed in Toby's room the whole time.I was watching Freddy vs Jason while Toby went to sleep,Brandon on his computer playing WarCraft and Justin lying on top of me and Brandon.Totally uncomfortable!

Toby's sister showed up and her characteristics resembles my cousin,in some way - rebellious.Either way,she was playing the guitar and singing and she sounded WAY better than anyone I've ever heard before!

Internet is okay here,but I struggle for it at times.

I know this post is short,but it's 1:20 am here and I'm really tired.

Until next time :)

Before you begin reading this post,I'd suggest you to read my previous post first because it's sorta related,sorta.

http://gregjslow.blogspot.com/2014/03/whats-meaning-of-life.html

In my case,I look in the mirror and I don't look like I want to look like at all,which is tough.Girls will understand my pain (except the twist is,I'm a guy [that no one would date] )

I tend to question myself as to why wasn't I born with a Brad Pitt look or even some Korean guy you'd probably fangirled or fanboyed once like G-Dragon ( come on,he's hot )

Having confidence in yourself is really important,because without confidence,life wouldn't be as smooth as you'd like it to be.Trust me,I've been there,and I'd probably want to start looking for a home in "no confidence lane"

WHY?!

Well for starters,I get cold feet almost instantly.I tend to think that I have an inner-me (I'm sure you believe(d) that as well),but that "inner me" who's supposed to be all confident and stuff never comes out when I need him.

Technically,singing is my hobby,and I intend to get cash with it. I'm not a really good singer though (I think)

Most of the time (well if you even met me) I would be singing random songs that just play on my phone OR even when I don't have music at all,so it's technically unplugged.That's not the worst part,I think I got scoldings from my teacher for singing too often.

Once,I was Tweeting and a girl replied to my Tweet.

I think it was something like.........

@GregJSLow : Maybe I should go for singing classes to improve on my singing.

@Idzlyncool : Oh,you sing?

@GregJSLow : Yes I do,didn't you hear me?I'm sitting behind you in class....

@Idzlyncool : Oh,I didn't notice,I was busy talking to Amani

@GregJSLow : Oh,it's okay

@Idlyzncool : Can you sing to me tomorrow?

@GregJSLow " uhhhhh......I'm shy

@Idzlyncool : Hahaha just sing a song only lah.Simple song can do.But must be K-Pop

*PAUSE*

That's where I kinda blacked out because I don't really know much about KPop,and she kinda asked me to sing songs specifically from a boyband that I don't listen to (2PM,Exo)

*RESUME*

@GregJSLow : So,what band?

@Idzlyncool : Um,2PM,Exo?Can?

@GregJSLow : I don't listen to them......

@Idzlyncool : Then sing anything you want it's okay with me

So that was pretty much how our conversation went ( and yes,that's our Twitter names,we don't follow each other any more,I don't know why )

SO,I tried Nu'est and it kinda failed.Firstly,I got the lyrics wrong (well it's K-Pop,what do you expect?It's not the alphabets! )

Secondly,yes.....cold feet..UGH the pain!

I went to school and we completely ignored each other.I thought she wasn't really taking it seriously with the singing thing,but sometimes I kind of have admirers here and there that it's kinda scary because a new one pops out every year.But I doubt she has even a 1% chance of actually having feelings for me,because like I said,I'm not Brad Pitt.

SO, (I gotta stop it with the so) I let my guard down,and it ACTUALLY happened.She asked me to sing.

That was also the part where all her girl friends were around and my guy friends were right beside me thinking we were on a hot topic of love or something. Okay,honestly,I have terrible guy friends in school. They would find the slightest chance that you give them,and embarrass you 100% with it.Trust me on that.

Cold feet,cold feet.I blacked out. I think I even forgot my name during that moment. I've never sang to a girl before,hell,I never sang in front of my mum,because she embarrasses me almost all the time.Wait,correction,she embarrasses me ALL THE TIME,sometimes in a good way and sometimes in a "do-you-wanna-die" way.

I had to sing.....had to?Nope I didn't sing.I kinda disappointed her and maybe that's why she unfollowed me?LOL....nah no hard feelings.I have more than 5K followers on Twitter so I'm pretty well okay. 

#EgoBooster

I think everyone was disappointed,even though I was just directing it to her.Perhaps everyone wanted to become "The Voice" judges for 3 minutes and see if I can win the million bucks :/

Anyhow,I thought about tons of things ever since then,and I wanted to make a change.

I didn't want to have cold feet again.I wanted to be confident,and have confidence in myself.

If someone else can do it,why can't I? Am I different? Am I not good enough? I kept telling that to myself. But I put all my faith that one day,confidence will become a thing too common in my life that I could even be a lecturer on the subject!

I lost hope after a while because things just didn't turn the way it should be.I was still afraid,afraid of myself.I couldn't stand myself.Why?I have no clue!

The pressure?The fame? I don't really care too much.But why,why am I always held back by my own self?

Why cant I take a step forward.

Sometimes,yes....things are easier said than done.But this is easy,yet why can't I do it?

I can't talk to a girl without looking at her directly in the eye. Confidence,where are you when I need you?

Perhaps I'm too weak,perhaps I'm destined to be like this,or perhaps I'm just too afraid to try.

I find it easier to express my feelings on a note,or even this Blog or even through music.But a normal conversation just cant happen.Isn't that the foundation of a relationship?

WHY CAN'T I DO IT?!

I shall try to be a better person for myself,and for the people that I love.

#BeConfident

But what about you?

Are you confident?

Can you face your fears,whether it's spiders,bugs,Boogeyman.....anything.Can you do it?

Are you confident enough?

I'm sure you are.

If you said no,then you don't believe in yourself,and that's a tough thing to face every single day and night over and over for the rest of your life until it may be too late for regrets.

Believe in yourself and thou shall get anything beyond your wildest dreams (now if you're a guy,I don't mean group sex with a bunch of girls looking like Megan Fox) - but a girlfriend/boyfriend,wife/husband and friends from all over the world with the opposite sex.

Don't get held back. Don't hold back. Step forward.Become the person that you'd never even thought of becoming.Live a happy life full of confidence.

I've been going through tons of nonsense lately,and of course,it's not a very good thing.

What's the meaning of life?

Yes I have tried Googling it,obviously I got these pictures from Google anyway.

Let's go back in time into my existential crisis situation.

Review my post from last year 

http://gregjslow.blogspot.com/2013/10/existential-crisis.html

This problem is happening again.All the troubles in life is bothering me again.

I'm Form 5 this year (which means Year 11 or Grade 11) and next year I'll be going to college,which means going separate ways with all my friends.

I'm sure that's the saddest part in life,if you've already experienced it.

So,the whole question is the meaning of life? Yes!

We get born,then we suffer 11 years of school,4 years or so of college/university, then work your a$$ off for the next 30-40 years,retire with lots of money in Hollywood (my dream) then die. Then of course,face judgement from God. Come to think of it,I might get a really heavy judgement because I've been bad :3

Life is sad cycle of pain and suffering (I'm sure you'll agree with me)

"Why am I Here? What is the meaning of life? What should I do with my life? These are questions that everyone asks themselves at one time or another, but the answers are often fleeting or misguided."

Seek without purpose. 
The universe will unfold and become clear when you seek knowledge without prejudice. Knowledge is not a destination, but a journey. Human knowledge is also imperfect. But don't despair, we know enough to come to firm conclusions. A 'fact' can only mean 'confirmed to such a degree that it would be perverse to withhold provisional assent.' I suppose that apples might start to rise tomorrow, but the possibility does not merit equal time in physics classrooms. Work with what you can know, not what you can imagine.

Know that the universe is under no obligation to conform to your expectations.
 It is what it is whether or not you exist.

Know that your life in civilization is a construct, not a law of nature. 
Our lives and the way we live them are human constructs of what we think is the best way to live. It is littered with over 6000 years of myth, superstition, and dogma. Don't confuse the truth with the things you do to survive. Society doesn't, and very often won't make sense.

Understanding yourself, the universe, and your place in society, it will be easy to find meaning because you will determine what is meaningful. 
You will be able to separate the noise of language and society from the true sound of yourself. Define for yourself what brings meaning to your existence. Your meaning will be different from everyone else. You will know your life is meaningful because you will not fear death, getting old,or the various travails all of us encounter. Your destiny, your reason for being here will be apparent every waking hour. Contentment and bliss will follow.

Find how you fit into this life, you are a piece of the puzzle, most of us live a life of imagination and when reality hits us we become disappointed and you lose the meaning of life. 
Start to see life in a bigger picture and know that the small things you do now fits into the bigger picture. For example if you want to save some amount of money, all you have to do is break down to how much you want to save in a day, one day at a time and in a number of years, you will save the money you wanted.

SO,have you gotten the concept I'm sharing?

I hope you enjoyed your weekend and my Blog post.












I've been into this game called "Clash Of Clans" and it's really fun and addictive.I suggest you to download it.

Apple : https://itunes.apple.com/us/app/clash-of-clans/id529479190?mt=8
Android: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.supercell.clashofclans



Haven't been active on Instagram because I'm not popular and no one likes my pictures.But here's a picture that showed up on my feed. XiaXue's Dash,and you can't deny it,he's f*cking adorable!

She's the top Blogger in all of Asia for all who doesn't know

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/
https://twitter.com/Xiaxue
http://instagram.com/xiaxue

Haha,that's not actually me,I so happened to find a guy using the name "Greg" as his Player ID.


An eagle or something?Awesome base design man!


I hit the jackpot on that huge loot of cash for the expense of 135 Barbarians (level 3) and one Lightning Spell (level 2). Hey,why else did I manage to get to Gold 1? I'm great at these games!


And if you're playing,I'm in that clan above. Cowboysfromhell (#3) The second CFH needs 1600 trophies to enter.I managed to enter,but they suggested me to head to #3 so I did.Join me!

I'll just put this very straight forward when I say that there's people who you deserve to be your friends and people who just can't fit into the same world as you.

Nope,I'm not talking about my uncle this time,since he didn't offend me yet.

I'm talking about a guy whom I met,and his name is Adrian.

I've had many friends by the name of Adrian,and all of them are way normal than this Adrian,whom I met at a coffee shop that I go to every Thursday night because my mum has some prayer meeting stuff going on there.

I'm going to flashback the whole situation to you and you use your imagination to put the story together.Okay?Just imagine someone you hate doing this.

I was in the coffee shop,on my laptop minding my own business.This family walked in the front door and spotted me.Guess they had dibs on my laptop perhaps?

So,the two sons,one named Adrian and the other,I don't really know,sat right next to me and was snooping on me while I input my email and password onto Google.

They were like

Hey,ever heard of the word PRIVACY and MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS ?

The younger one did turn away while I was inputting my password and stuff like that,but the older one (Adrian) kept on snooping.

I ignored him.

Then I opened up StarCraft 2. And remember it's STAR CRAFT !!

He has this weird screw-loose kind of voice,like a retarded homo I suppose,and he started talking to me

Before I continue,let me just point this out,NEVER SAY YES TO ANYTHING A WEIRD STRANGER ASKS YOU,BECAUSE IT COULD BE YOUR WORST MISTAKE EVER !!!!

• Adrian: Oh,so who do you like?Huh huh huh huh??
• Me: No one.....
• Adrian: John Cena? Huh huh huh??
• Me: Little bit.....
• Adrian: Why? Huh huh huh??
• Me: He's cool......
• Adrian: Undertaker?Daniel Bryan?