This is the tenth Blog update in the ten-week assignment for college. So right after this post , there might not be new updates for a brief period of time. I'm putting my Blog life to the side for the moment while I focus on passing my college semester, Either way , enjoy the final post in the ten-week assignment

Growing up happens to everyone and everything , whether you like it or not. When you're young , you were dreaming about the day you'd be fully grown into a teenager , then to an adult. I'm pretty sure that you were really happy when you reached your tenth birthday. Don't lie , you were very happy to be double digits in age.

But now , you just want to become a child again.

You don't realize it when you're little , but you have the whole world to yourself. There really isn't many things opposing you , except for the conceptual fact that time doesn't slow down for anyone . These days , the 24-hour clock doesn't seem so 24-hour(ish) . Time can fly really fast , and that means that a day has passed. And another day passes by. Then another. Somehow , a whole year has passed by and you're one year older.

As you grow up , you face tons of things that could drag you down to the point of depression , anxiety and the feeling of giving up on everything and hoping that time could just be paused. The main thing about growing up would be to hit puberty , and that's when things start to change. If you're a guy , your voice cracks , your growth becomes rapid , you start growing hair everywhere and you'll have an interest in girls as your hormones starts raging. About this time you'd also find out that porn is a thing and that basically ruins your teenage life , in a way.

If you're a girl , you'd experience the very first period - which is not fun , I'm pretty sure of it. Besides that , you'd have your breasts growing with your hormones and stuff , and you'll start to like guys. This is also the part when girls actually become very dirty minded and start doing really dumb stuff that guys find super seductive and attractive. I don't think I need to explain further on this.

You'd have your first kiss , your first crush , your first date , your first boyfriend / girlfriend - basically your first of everything. It might seem fun and all but it gets very stressful , as you'd be very confused about what's going on and you're purely acting based on instinct alone. There really isn't much decision making to be done , so mistakes can happen - and that would lead to downfalls.

The dark side of being in your teenage years would be depression. Somehow , sometime , you'd face depression. The thoughts of being alone , being completely isolated and the fear of being left out starts to haunt you , and it's traumatizing. If you just broke up with your significant other , things can be a little worse. As for me , I required a lot of counseling when I was in my early and mid teenage years in order to keep myself intact and to think straight.

I was a very shy person - and I still am. I find it personally hard to approach someone to start a conversation , especially if it's a girl that I'm approaching because , I guess girls have very high expectations for a random guy to go up to them and start a normal conversation with. But I guess I still live with a high level of anxiety and insecurities.

I also figured out that there's more to life than just spending money to get a proper education in order to get a good job and have a smooth life. Earth is a miraculous creation created by The Almighty in The Beginning. I wanted , and still want to explore everything that mother nature has to offer . However , you need money to travel - so getting a job is inevitable at the end of the day.

But things have to go one step at a time , because with growth comes wisdom. I learn new things everyday and I meet new people , and I couldn't be more grateful for everything that I have granted to me right now. Growing up is basically all about gratitude , that you've been given a chance to grow up and life the one life given to you. Be grateful , and appreciate everything in life.

Have a great day , until I Blog again 

I made this Blog to talk about life . Whether it's my life or someone else's or something that everyone can relate to about life , that was the whole reason this Blog started in the first place. Heck , that was the reason why I started blogging in the first place. It's why everything started .....

"In the beginning" ..... no , I won't start this Blog post that way. Things aren't always easy , that's the beginning. Life is like a spiral of emotions , feelings , tragedies and disasters. "Happy birthday" - you've survived yet another year. Prepare for the next year , that basically repeats itself with all the issues that everyone and everything has in store for you.

You can cartwheel all you want past life , but sometimes you stray onto a path where there's a huge boulder in front of you , and you're expected to climb it . Not cartwheel over it , going around it , or even turning back. You have to climb it. 

Everything that happens in life can be traced back to a single small decision made in the past , either by yourself or by someone else. It changes the course of time , and therefore it alters the future , which is now your past. Those decisions change things , in a huge way. It effects the way you grow up , the type of mentality that you will have , and the way you present yourself . 

Behind a happy face , is a sorrowful soul. Problems occur everywhere , and on everyone. You might seem happy , and even appear happy - but are you happy ? I know people who are cheerful all the time , and puts smiles on everyone's faces. But when they're all alone with me , they share their darkest secrets , their inner selves are shown , and they're not happy. We all go through problems. Problems with family , friends , work , and a lot more.

We're all merely a particle in the Universe , and the Universe couldn't be bothered. Things are meant to happen , all because of a small decision. Adam and Eve ate an apple in the Beginning , and there came Sin , and that was the Darkness. Ever since then , life wasn't so smooth anymore. 

For my case , my "dad" deciding to leave me in the clutches of my "mother" and the abyss of damnation , he basically screwed me over. What was once an innocent boy living in the world has now become an Antichrist psychopathic maniac that requires killing stuff , or watching people die for his soul to be satisfied. You might think that's crazy , but I've watched all the SAW and Final Destination movies and I enjoy watching the characters die one after another in a tragic way. It keeps my sanity intact. 

I need to see a therapist ? I did. I had a lot of counseling and that didn't really work out. 

It's been a very stressful month for me . Both college and my personal life has been bombarding me with every single nonsense that it could come up with. Just imagine 100 atomic bombs blowing up in Pearl Harbor at the same time . Imagine the devastation. That's pretty much what I'm going through at the moment.

Firstly , I have an assignment that consists of me covering a total of 12 events for a newsletter that I have to complete in a timespan of one month. It's easier said than done , and it's seriously stressful. A single event could take up two hours , or even your entire day. It's insanity on another level. 

I started off the month by covering one event , which is a sneak preview of my university's new campus that is still under construction. The building should be ready in a few weeks to accept students in , which excludes me as my department ( Communications ) will not be moving into the new building for now. In other words , I'll be stuck in the old building until I graduate , most likely.

Here are some pictures , for your viewing.

Picture of the international school's logo.

I've been on Blogger for a long time , longer than 3 years now. In that period of time , I've posted tons of Blog posts about how existential I am as a human being. I'm not the typical human being that lives life according to the flow of how everything goes day-by-day , as I mostly just stare into the emptiness of space and question myself about the things that humans might not have the answers to.

When you question something as big as the existence of everything that is existing in this world - and the Universe in all , you have to start from the very beginning. Now , being an extremely existential person doesn't mean that I'm always trying to figure out if the chicken or the egg came first. That's just a science question that each person has different answers and theories to.

In the beginning , there was one man . He is named by everyone as "God" . But what if things weren't that simple. What if "God" was a man-made thing so that us humans would believe in an Almighty and everlasting being ? Perhaps someone came up with a conspiracy of our Maker a very long time ago . This all leads to the " B.C " and " A.D. " If you're unsure of what those two mean , they are " before Christ " and " after death " - which is after the death of Jesus Christ.

Disclaimer : I am not doing a Bible study session , or a Sunday School lesson , so don't get things mixed up.

There are many different entities called " Almighty " . It ranges from Jesus , to Allah , to Buddha , and so on . But then again , could they be man-made ? I'm not stating that I don't believe in an Almighty , because I do go to church - occasionally . However , if you put things into an existential perspective , perhaps an Almighty might not even exist , and the terms of " Heaven " and " Hell " wouldn't exist too.

( And at this very moment I realize that the super religious people are mad at me )

Q : So , if you're saying that both Heaven and Hell doesn't technically exist , then what are they ?

A : I've never seen / been to Heaven , or Hell . Furthermore , who would want to go to Hell ? In life , everything is divided into two sides . It's like how the Ying and Yang works .


Q : Further explain the beginning of time

A : " In the beginning , God created the Heavens and the Earth , and everything in between " . That would be based on a biblical standard . A scientific mindset ? It does involve God , but it also involves other theories like how us humans were once apes and we learned to evolve over the past thousands of years. Dates . The year is 2016 , while there are also timestamps of B.C and A.D , which is technically the start of 0000 onwards. Then there's the longer period of millions of years ago . That involves the dinosaurs , giant spiders and the Megalodon . " Scientists made up dinosaurs to discourage time travel " . I don't think it's simple to make bones , bury them deep in the ground , then after a few decades dig them up again and claim them as a new discovery . Time travel ? Time cannot be altered . It's always moving forwards , not backwards , and it certainly doesn't pause at a specific interval. Time travel is pure fiction , and chances of it being discovered in reality is a close estimation to NEVER. Sorry for ruining your dreams of seeing the dinosaurs. But now if you think about it , the dinosaurs are huge - which means they'd step on you and you'd be dead . And what happens if your time machine stops functioning ? You'd be stuck in time , millions and millions of years ago. Go figure your life goals.

Q : What is the meaning of life ?

A : The straight forward truth would be to live it to it's fullest. But , it's not that simple. There are tons of obstacles that are in life , and you'd have to endure them all to survive.

You come into the world -> get into kindergarten -> get into elementary school -> get into high school -> get into university -> get a job -> get married -> retire -> enjoy your final moments in life . Then you're dead.

Depressing huh ?

I think I covered this topic before , but I'd like to talk about it again , and probably make things more complexed .

In an existential perspective ( which is what this whole Blog post is about anyways ) , life would mean to experience and learn things to be independent and survive in a harsh world with a lot of struggles and problems. The purpose ? Scroll up to the part where I mentioned about an everlasting war between Heaven and Hell . "Living" is basically boot camp , in which whatever you do and the choices you make in life would determine where you'd go to in the afterlife , and which side you'd be fighting alongside for all eternity.

Q : How existential are you ?

A : Very existential.

Q : What does "existential" even mean ?

A : To end this Blog post which went everywhere , in my opinion - the term existential means that you tend to always question life in a very in-depth point of view , and you live a very dark and demented life.

I'm not the type to keep track and up-to-date with dates , literally any date in particular. Heck , I tend to forget when my mum and dads birthdays are , so it gets pretty awkward when I finally find out that it's today , and totally forget to wish them. Terrible son ......

Anyways , I'm early. A week and a half early I believe. It basically marks three years since I've had this Blog . I actually started Blogging around early 2011 , but I deleted that Blog and everything that was written in that Blog altogether. But , since that Blog doesn't exist , I'm counting from this one instead. And , many things have happened ever since this Blog started. So , I'm going back down memory lane to all the activities that happened during these three years. 

When you start a story , obviously it has to begin at the beginning of it all. So , it's going to start from my very first Blog post here , all the way to the present. I will not link any of the posts here , so just treat this as a small story that I'm reflecting upon.

In 2013 , that was when I got my first smartphone , the Samsung Galaxy S3 Mini. What does a Mini look like ? Here's the Mini beside the iPhone 4S for comparison .

2015 came along and that was the start of my new chapter in life , college. I didn't have much expectations at first , and it was all mostly just me being the lone wolf walking the path by myself. Of course , it never works out and I made some friends . 

In 2015 , I starred in a YouTube video which received a lot of buzz , and earned my friend the first place in a competition - and that's pretty sick. All the credit definitely has to go to my granduncle for sharing the video to each and every staff member of my college , because he's the CEO .

FUN FACT : I am related to the CEO of the university. I'm not related by blood , but by family name. 

2015 could possibly be the most important year for me , as I figured out what I wanted to become in the future , and I managed to pave myself a road to my own dreams and desires that I hope to achieve. Being in the YouTube video was my very first experience in front of the camera , and it was scary as I was the main actor , in a debut. 

I like to call the whole thing my "debut" on YouTube , which to be fair - I will get to it soon.  

For Christmas , my dad got me a MacBook Pro , for video editing and work , which I should get started on. The only roadblock I have now is my crazy college schedule and all the assignments that I have to complete. 2016 should be fun , as I'm looking forward for what the year has in store for me !