So my dad just texted me stating that I remove some words from my previous Blog update, which I already did. You happy now ?!

I've lost all respect for a lot of people, and I pretty much trust no one as I once trusted in a lot of things, but it tends to hit me back so hard with a " You're stupid for trusting " thing.

You can say all that you want. When I'm pissed I'll say and do anything. That's just how I am since I've been growing up in a surrounding of torture and people not giving shit about me. True my mum raised me up and stuff which I am grateful, but she also messed up my life to the point of no return.

About my eye problem (which was in the previous post) the only reason why I said what I said was because the pain was bloody painful. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BLOODY PAINFUL IT WAS, and all my grandma could say was " it's nothing " . 

Look for starters, I don't sleep. The reason I stay up late is because that's when I get my own private time, with no one talking but the TV turned on to my favorite channels. If you got a problem with that, confront me.

My mum could say I'm an ungrateful kid and my dad could just keep all the things he wants to say to me in his heart, but that's who I am, deal with it.

Ever wonder why the kids who are happy are happy ? It's because they have both of their parents with them and everything about their life isn't / wasn't a lie.

I pretty much grew up without my dad. A dads' responsibility is to teach his kid(s) how to be respectful and be responsible and other things. My mum never respected me, in fact she's humiliated me so many times that I lost count, and if I were to convert those humiliations to a dollar , I'd be able to buy Microsoft easy.

My whole life has also been a lie as well. See I'm NOT their children (my current parents) , which I already am over that stupid fact. But when I tried to ask them about my REAL life, they couldn't answer ! Why? What's so hard? You don't want my feelings to get hurt or something?

My feelings got torn apart when I found out exactly who I am when the truth didn't come from any of my family members but my god brothers' mum. Messed up huh?

My dad doesn't know HALF the things I've been through. Sometimes it's not very funny when my dad and/or grandma states that " I know my mum better than they do ". Because as a fact I do, and I don't like it.

And I say it again, I removed those words.

To hell with life.

Edit : I removed the whole post so no one can complain about it .

Oh and note another thing, I removed a LOT of cussing in this post , again , so no one can complain about it.

Each year, everyone makes tons of resolutions hoping to achieve all of them before the year ends. Once again, I failed my goals, as usual.

Now that there are tons of resolutions I'm personally trying to achieve without getting out of my comfort zone, which probably would never be accomplished without putting some extra effort into it.

2014 was an okay year for me. I headed to Jakarta in March to hang out with my god brother and to meet his friends whom are really nice people. A few months later, I headed to Singapore for a second round of Universal Studios.

Moving on, I managed to snag myself tickets for Kurt Hugo Schneider and Sam Tsui's concert, which was pretty much the best night ever. I missed Alex Goot and Against The Current's concert, but that didn't rally matter because I was close to my exams so I couldn't go anyways. 

Last month I went to Melbourne for a week, tons of exploring and taking great photos.

I also got my second smartphone which is basically the "latest" model from Samsung - Note 4. The phone itself is amazing with a really great display and the camera pixel resolution is heavenly. Right after I came back from Melbourne I managed to get  Nintendo 3DS XL to play Pokemon Alpha Sapphire and Omega Ruby. Yes, I did manage to get both games ! All thanks to my dad of course for getting me these things.

Right now I don't have to bother deleting all my music and videos that I don't watch as I managed to get a 32 GB memory card for my phone, which was previously a 16 GB. So it's a huge upgrade which I can store all my nonsense in my iTunes, which is basically a thousand songs I believe.

I hit 18 this year which means I'm "responsible" for all my nonsense by myself, which just means that I can start earning from Blogging nonsense once in a while. I'm not the best Blogger and my content isn't really that good, but a few views from each post can / could get me something. 

Last month I believe, I posted on my Blog about if I'm gay or not, which I'm not, and I'm happy about it. During that time I was thinking about tons of nonsense, to Coming Out videos from Connor Franta, so I decided to test myself out without a video posted up anywhere, as I don't have the resources to produce a good quality video. Sorry about that.

The year 2014 was also when I set my goals to make music, which included tons of weird music that I dubbed into chipmunks.

My music : https://www.dropbox.com/home/Chipmunk(ed)%20Songs

To those who know me a lot, I really love singing. So I've been practicing for the whole 2014 and I'm not gonna brag, but I THINK I sound okay :/

I visited my college campus and I found their sound recording room, which is probably the room I'm gonna be spending a lot of time in this year once I start college in March.

Which reminds me, I'm headed for Ed Sheeran's concert in March, which I'm so psyched about !!

Last year on the last day of December I confessed to someone that I liked her and she was cool with it and all. The relationship is quite complicated atm, and I'm not gonna put it up here.

While I was on the plane for 7 hours headed to Melbourne and back here, I was watching Vampire Diaries the whole time on a Samsung Tab that my dad rented for entertainment throughout the flight, which made me addicted and I have the whole Vampire Diaries show on my laptop, which I have yet to watch.

I kinda hope that I get to learn an instrument before I start to work, because I could really use the talent. If you like music so much, why not make music? Am I right?

I'm not good looking (or maybe that's just me rejecting my own existence) - but I gave my life for music, so hopefully I get to conquer my fear of stage fright and start using what I've been practicing for to good use, vocals. I can sing during youth service, but I want a crowd. :3

My main thing on my bucket list this year is basically to get my ass up and do some exercise.....which I might do or might not. This is the problem when you're really lazy to do anything.

Happy New Year if I haven't posted it up yet, even though the new year was 17 days ago. Sorry not sorry.

Recently I've been really busy with a lot of things which mainly revolves around the circuit of life.

First off, I got enrolled to driving school. I was really nervous for the first day, but turned out that the nervousness wasn't even 1% necessary. What happened was I was just asked to sit in a classroom for 6 hours straight and listen to this tutor ramble about stuff non-relevant to driving at all. It was so boring a few people went to sleep, while I just played with my games on my phone.

That was 2 weeks ago. Recently this past Monday I went for the "undang" test which is a objective exam consisting of 50 questions divided into 3 sections, one for eyesight tests and the others for basic road and signs knowledge. After completing the eyesight test and halfway through the road signs parts, I realized that the questions were really simple and need not panic at all.

But I failed, by two points. The passing is 42/50 but I gained 40/50 , which means that I would have to repeat the exam again, which would be this Monday, which is in 2 days after this Blog post comes out on the Internet.

I'm currently in my grandma's house which has serious flaws....which started recently. First off, the Internet sucks ass as usual, constantly disconnecting and what not. Secondly, the power supply has been cut off because of the worthless TNB (Tenaga Nasional Berhad) which means National Power Supply. Nothing seems to work anymore in this God damn country, Malaysia.

I don't understand why people would even want to come to this country to stay or do business. It's the worst country in the world that's all I have to say.

Recently a K-Pop group came over here for a performance and a lot of people went (of course, they're Korean) - why not. Anyway, a few Muslim girls went up to stage and the Korean guys started holding their hands and all, and as usual the girl screams everywhere.

Later the NGO's said that the girls were being molested and all sorts of bullshit and some website even stated that the "K" in "K-Pop" means "Kristian" - Christian Pop.

No one even understands a damn word of K-Pop so don't go out there making stupid worthless assumptions of shit.

Another case is that a girl was prohibited from entering the class in school because she was wearing "baju kurung" which apparently now is only legit for Malay girls or something. Don't be fucking racist please.