I noticed I haven't been updating my Blog recently , as I don't really have any content that's interesting enough to talk / rant about on this Blog . Surprising that I still gain views everyday. Thank you :)

So far I've been busy learning how to drive , although the lessons are just once a week . The rest of the time I just spend sitting in my corner and being on YouTube , while trying to figure out what I want to do with my life.

I've told myself to go downstairs for a swim or maybe to the gym , which obviously failed as usual because I'm just too lazy , and these days it's always pouring cats and dogs , so I have an excuse to tell myself ....

Two weeks ago I managed to go to an Ultraman convention , which 90% of the audience was minors which literally pit me in a situation of " Do I really belong here?" I found some teenagers here and there so eventually I found myself comfortable. The performance was good , though it was mainly choreographed for kids , because at one point the audience was supposed to stand and dance , using moves that were just hand gestures going up and down , the kind of dancing you'd learn in preschool .

I haven't started college yet , but I'm quite pumped and enthusiastic about it. The irony is that I'm heading into Mass Communication which basically means talk, talk , talk - but I'm a quiet person. So I'll just have to cross my fingers that I don't go back to my quiet self , though I normally can't shut up when I'm around someone I'm comfortable with .

My mum said that I wouldn't go far , as usual with her "non supportive" attitude , as you have to work like shit to make it in communications. She probably thinks I'm going into advertisements , which I'm not. I'm going to film making. And for all the people who keep telling me there's no film making course in communications , look it up idiots !

In other news , Wrestle Mania 31 was amazing , as the matches were incredible and congratulations to the respective winners. This Pay-Per-View probably saved WWE from the devastating let-down from the previous Pay-Per-View that is Royal Rumble. So well done there.

Going back to film making , I think I'm gonna enjoy it. Making computer games is amazing , no doubt , but I really like the idea of being behind the camera , or maybe IN FRONT . Who knows , I might make it one day .

Film making these days isn't really hard. You can either be an actor or a YouTuber , which both is fun to do, except acting sometimes revolves around life and death situations. YouTubers these days are becoming really successful , from the likes of PewDiePie , Zoella , Tyler Oakley , Troye Sivan and many others. So that's one route I'm definetely interested in.

Hope you guys have a great day ahead , and happy April . Fast & Furious comes out this week so I'm really pumped up for it. And at the end of April there's Avengers , so what's there not to look forward to ?

In every match there are always two sides, side A and side B . The ring is usually a rectangle , which determines the positions of side A and side B . In the center , there could be a net , or that circle thing you see on football fields ( I don't play football sorry ).

Now picture team A and team B are going to start the match , with a twist that makes you stand at the center, trying not to get hit by either sides at anytime . Hard ? Yes it is.

Which brings me to my situation. If you're one of those frequent readers whom I appreciate , you'd know that I tend to complain about my life and rant about it pretty much every week , and I'm not gonna lie - this post is also complaints. 

It's true that I can consider myself lucky with all the luxuries I own such as my computer and my phone, but all this came with a price , a huge price.

In some cultures people believe that we were reincarnated from our previous life, either 100 years ago , or during the age of the dinosaurs - I really hope I was a T-Rex then. And with reincarnation , judgment will fall upon you.

As you may have heard before " Do good in this life and you'll be blessed in the next " . I'm not sure if my situation could pit me in the good or bad, or just in the center....which brings me to our ball game once again.

See , my dad hasn't been here for a really long time , and he just came back 2 years ago. During those times , I've been the middleman between a war between my mum and my dad. Bullets , grenades , incendiary grenades, all those were thrown back and forth and back and forth - repeat.

They do injure each other from time to time , but all those straying bullets and grenades that weren't thrown properly landed on me, and I got hurt.

When my mum wants something and my dad doesn't give it to her, she throws everything out on me like it's my fault. The fuck am I supposed to do if my dad doesn't want to give her cash ?

Just a few minutes ago , probably an hour ago - my mum called and said that I should get a job. It's not really a bad idea , considering that I'm not really doing anything productive until my college starts , which is at the end of May. So during this period of time , chances are that I'm going to have to go for driving lessons every morning with a fucking instructor that has no patience whatsoever. 

I don't mind working , though I'm not sure what environment suits me best . But the worst part is my pay. No I'm not a money minded guy who goes after salaries like 100K dollars or something. Small and decent salaries like 1-2K is already good enough for me. 

But here's the bitch , since my dad won't fork out some cash for my mum , she'll try all sorts of ways to make ME fork over MY cash. Now I don't mind giving some of my salary to my mum or dad if need be , but I'm talking ALL of my salary. That's right , someone else works - someone else gets the pay. Fair ? Fuck no !

My mum has never been supportive over what I want to pursue in my career. She constantly told me that I won't make it and I won't earn much and tons of other bullshit , but I can guarantee her sorry future ass , I'll make it. And my middle finger will be up to everyone who looked down on me. 

And that's how my life can be related to the one in the center of the field. 

Has it ever come to mind on the fact of why we humans exist? Or why anything exists in that matter ?What is our purpose in life? We were born to make a change , to make a stand , to make our parents proud , to make our country proud , to make our friends proud , to make ourselves proud.

When you know within yourself that there's something you wanna do,

and I believe that all of us are born with a purpose.

That all of us have something that we are supposed to do.

That all of us have some goodness within us,

and that goodness gives us a responsibility.

To manifest our greatness.

Not only it's possible for you to have your dream, but it's necessary.

It's necessary that you have it. 

That you work on it, that you develop yourself.

That you go for what is yours in the universe.

Every single day when you wake up,

You better be spending time on your dream, 

you better be spending time.

You ain't got time to waste, it is a sense of urgency.

It's a character, who you are, 

it's not the tittle that makes you,

it's not the success that makes you.

The character defines the success, 

defines the fame, and it starts right there.

They won in a thousands of hours in the training room, the laps, the 5 AM runs, and when it's raining

and when everyone else sleeping.

That's when it's won!

The heart of a champion is a light switch that's always on,

it doesn't go on and off, when someone's watching, 

it's constant!

It's how you look at something, 

if your name is attached to it, then you do it right.

The best of your ability, every single time!

And the problem of some of you, is that want somebody else to support, your dream, it's YOURS.

I don't owe you a dime, it's your dream, 

if you want to happen, get your butt up and make it happen!

If you want to happen, rise and grind.

That if you want a thing bad enough to go out and fight for it,

to work day and night for it, to give up your time, 

your peace and your sleep for it,

if all that you dream and scheme is about it, 

and life seems useless and worthless without it,

And if you gladly sweat for it, fret for it and plan for it, and lose all your terror of the opposition for it...

And if you simply go after that thing that you want with all of your capacity, strength and sagacity, faith, hope and confidence and stern pertinacity,

If neither cold poverty, famished and gaunt, sickness or pain of body and brain can keep you away from the thing that you want...

Now that's that thing called "Life", 

is that is always changing, sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down.

I can tell you that now, be aware of that. Things are not gonna work out exactly right, sometimes the will! Sometimes!

And that's when life's just playing a game with you.

"I don't wanna play anymore."

I don't care how good you are, I don´t care how talented you are, I don't care how much you work on yourself,

there are some times, that things aren't go right. They just are not going to go right.

There are times when anything that can happen, 

will happen.

But during those down moments, that's where the growth takes place.

That´s where the work is. See, anybody can feel good when they have their health, their bills are paid, they have happy relationships.

Anybody can be positive then!

Anybody can have a larger vision then, anybody can have faith under those kind of circumstances. See what the real challenge,

the real challenge of growth, mentally, emotionally and spiritually comes when you get knocked down.

That some of you in your life, the reason why you´re not blowing up

the reason why you're not successful, you´re not learned to past

you think just because this opportunity is for you, and not every opportunity is for you!

All of us have experienced some tragedy, and If we haven't, we will.

And you can let it destroy your life or you can build upon it.

You can be committed to let you hold you down or you can decide I'm not going to let that happen to me !

I'm bigger than this!

It's not going to be easy, when you wanna change, it´s not easy, if it were in fact easy, everybody has done it.

But if you´re serious, you go all out!

We all fall down in life, the questions is who gets back up?

Is forgive and grow.

You´re about to separate yourself from the path, and you're about to be on top.

If you want to begin to move into your own personal greatness, you got to be willing to go against the tide.

You've got to be willing to harness your will. And say in spite of this.

I'm in control here. I´m not gonna let this get me down, I'm not gonna let this destroy me.

It´s not your circumstances or your situations, that determines if you are going to be successful or not.

I've been telling you that is your mindset, it´s the way you see it, it´s the way you think it.

Your mind is the battleground, touch somebody and tell them the enemy is after your mind.

Out to worry you to death, out to stress you to death, out to break you down, out to make you quit, out to make think that

you can't get up, out to make you give up on your dreams 

The warfare is in your mind, it´s not on your checkbook

it´s not in your savings account, it's not on your job, the fight that you got to fight is in your mind.

And if you whip it in your head, you can whip it in your checkbook, you can whip it on your job, you can whip it out of your children.

but you gotta drive it outta your head.

"I´m coming back!"

And I´ll be stronger and better because of it. You have got to make the declaration

That this is what you stand for:

Standing up for peace of mind, you´re standing up for health, you´re standing up for your dreams.

You want it !

And you gonna go all out, to have it.

Let it go and begin to focus on developing myself and I say to you

you gonna have people that do things to you, things are gonna happen to you and the most important thing to do

is to harness your will and let it go!

And move, so you can grow.

So you can get on with your life

It doesn't matter about what happens to you, what matters is: what are you gonna do about it?

When you want something bad you can´t count the cost because if you count the cost,

and you see how much it cost, you might quit, you might give up so you gotta go in

knowing that I don´t count the cost. I´ll do as many push-ups as it takes, as many sit-ups as it takes, as many reps as it takes, I'll study as long as it takes

I'll pay whatever the price is, why? 

Because if start to count the cost, I might quit, I might give up

I might surrender. Don´t count the cost. You don´t count the cost on this one. 

You don´t count how many breaths you take, you don´t count it.

You get to a point where you don´t count it. You just do whatever it takes to get whatever you want. Don´t stop!

Stay busy, work your plan, continue to do those things that you know that work for you.

After you have evaluated yourself in the situation. Once you make a decision and you go all in

And you say I ain´t quitting till I get there, ain´t giving up, ain't giving in

I will do whatever it takes to be successful and when you make that decision, YOU -

When you look at YOU in the mirror, when you tell yourself that:

"Look, I´m through, I´ll do whatever it takes!" I guarantee you

that's the day it begins to happen.

Forget about your past, forget what happens back in the day, 

make the REST of your life - the BEST of your life.

Link to original video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FhzNSPiqO0M

What's the first thing that comes into your head when you see / hear the word "Korea" or "Korean" ?

If any Koreans are reading this and feel offended , I'm sorry. Just for your information, your leader is one famous dude on the Internet, if you've yet to notice that. We all love your hairstyle Kim Jong Un !

But that's in the eyes of the elderly. But what about the teenagers? I'll give you a hint.

Yes , Kpop. We all love Kpop. The main reason is because of their very catchy songs that you just need to put on repeat ( Note : I'm listening to B.A.Ps' "One Shot" while writing this Blog post )

Another reason is because the guys are freaking cute ( even I can't deny it ) and the girls are freaking hot !

With Korea rising - both politically , which I have no interests about and musically - my thing , a lot of hype goes all over the place , let it be on the Internet with memes and gifs on girls dancing as seen above to Taeyang with his shirt off.

I'm gonna bring up a very old topic , one that is about two months old , where I comment on the B1A4 concert in Malaysia. The main buzz over that concert was when the Malay girls went up on the stage and hugged the Kpop artists but the Islam group called it "harassment and rape" somehow. 

I don't have any power to comment over the issue and I don't intend to ( to avoid the cops knocking at my door ) - but sometimes you gotta let loose a little bit. If you restrict yourself too much to the point where everything is illegal to do , then what's the point in living ?

Right after the B1A4 concert , Taeyang came around and was given firm warnings overhand about not stripping topless on stage as it's "haram" for Muslim girls. That really set all social media ablaze , condemning Malaysia about being all stupid and being a jerk ( which even I pitted in the suggestion )

But seriously, give us some space. The country is already bad enough, please don't restrict anymore things, or people - not just me in particular would go hating on the country and all sorts of nonsense. I mean , when Gangnam Style came out , some source said that the dance was humiliating the Islam religion. Please tell me how ? Thanks .

This is the time where I take about 3 minutes to figure out if I said anything offensive in my post , because then again I don't want cops knocking at my door, well that is if the authorities are good to trace the post back to my address, which I believe isn't hard to do but Malaysia isn't the.....tech geek kind of country.

Some music to finish up this pointless post :

If you're wondering why the guys have eyeliner, it's normal for them Kpop boys to look girly, because it makes them look better.

Before I get started, NO - I have not abandoned Blogger at all. I just don't have very good content that's worth posting , which is best I stick to being on Tumblr 

http://thebridgesofunknown.tumblr.com/

I've been busy these days , with my driving lessons that happens pretty much randomly - and it's frustrating ..... kind of. Either way, I'm able to drive ( without crashing ) , although there have been some close calls here and there, but I'm bruise free ( for the time being )

My dad drove me and my grandma to my school to pick up my SPM slip , which I managed to take the opportunity to catch up with my ex classmates , and that was fun because a lot has happened in 3 months.

There were 11 people who managed to get all A's in my school, so congratulations to them. As for me, my results are like shit in the toilet bowl. Why ? Because it's awful.

I'm not gonna reveal the exact results that I have because I myself am ashamed to even glance at the paper , so I'm just gonna say that I achieved 3 credits , which is crap.

Over the past 3 months , my friends have stopped wearing glasses , started wearing glasses , grew taller , shrunk , way hotter compared to before , and tons of them dyed their hair. So I have proven that I'm not the only one that has changed like....a lot.

Not sure if it's bad karma or anything , but I listened to 10 , maybe 20 very depressing songs about life last night when I was just hollow inside , and today I myself am depressed because of my results.

Decided to say sorry to my family members for my shitty results through here , because the word "sorry" never comes out from my mouth, as I don't offend anyone often so what's the point of saying sorry.

It really isn't Scar , it really isn't .