It has been a month over since I updated anything on this Blog of mine , which I legitimately forgot that I even have to begin with. I decided to take a long break off my website and to just let life go on , which is quite moderate so far. 

Another semester in college has come to an end , and there have been some good and some bad that came along with it. I didn't enjoy this semester , as I took up two subjects that I have the least of interests in - Public Relations and Advertising. Allow me to elaborate further in details.

I'm not someone that prefers theory over practical. I never did like theory , as it wasn't my forte to begin with , and both of these subjects are theory subjects. There was a third , Social & Business Communication - but I decided to drop that subject because well , I couldn't come to terms with trying to enjoy a third subject solely on theory. There wouldn't be any fun. Thankfully , I heard that there will be some practical subjects to choose from for the next semester , so that would be really fun.

I've created new bonds , broken old ones , and changed the landscape of my surroundings in a drastic way. Of course , all this happened without me even realizing it , but it did happen - for better or for worse. Feeling affectionate over a particular girl has also occurred over this past month and a half . If you're reading this , I think you know who I'm referring to. I'll probably just stay a friend , considering that I'm ugly and no one really likes me.

Just kidding , I may be ugly - but I won't let that bring my morale down .

My braces life is reaching the one year mark , which means that I only have another year to go. It's not a period of suffering and pain , but it's extremely hard to eat food without having bits and pieces getting stuck between the wires every now and then. To add on , I'm not someone who would bring a dental kit around with me in my pocket or anything for on-the-go dental assistance. I felt really uncomfortable brushing my teeth the last time I brushed my teeth in a public toilet. It's gross and unhygienic , and I hope to never have to do that ever again.

But now I'm going to step into sensitive territory. In other words , religion will be the main topic for this Blog post.

In my life , I've been missing out on church for a lot of weeks in a row as of right now , and my mum isn't proud of it. Is it really compulsory to attend church just because you're a Christian. I believe that everyone has their own rights to say yes and no , which is clearly a privilege that I do not own as of right now. You can't force someone to do something against their own will. If I don't feel - sanctified while being in church , then the atmosphere isn't for me. Should I move to a new church , and probably somewhere that has more teenagers as compared to the one I'm currently in ? ... perhaps. 

I've hit rock bottom with this whole religion thing a while back , ever since religion was abused when literally any topic would be brought up. And before I proceed further , I have no intentions of targeting everyone in this religious belief , just a couple of serious believers that know nothing else but religion itself. 

I'll start off with Christianity. Yes , I'm going to target my own religion , and for a valid reason . Many lives have been lost over the past two months , with mass murders to terrorist attacks , and a serious jealousy problem turned ugly. That is what I'm looking to focus on for this section.

Unless you're living under a rock , you've heard of the Pulse Nightclub shooting in Orlando last year. 49 people were murdered in cold blood , and 53 others were wounded in the process. It was a gruesome moment in human history , and absolute carnage and sheer proof that humanity is falling into an abyss that we cannot climb up from. We either attempt to keep climbing out of the abyss , or give into despair and fall right in. 

The tragedy , is that this Californian pastor hasn't died by being shot 49 times - in the head . That would be utterly satisfying to watch. I'd be cheering for that. Yes , I'm with the LGBT community , I support them and I strongly believe that they deserve equal rights as all of us straight people. They're human beings too in case you were too blind to notice. There are also Tweets that states about how Jesus sent the shooter to kill them because they were gay . Well if God is really that cold hearted , then Christianity isn't the thing I'd like to believe in. Say what you want , judge how you like - I'm entitled to my own open opinions over everything . If being a Christian means that I should celebrate the killing of other people because they don't have sexual interests in the opposite gender , then I'd gladly say goodbye to my faith , which is already shaken as of this moment.

The shooter was a Muslim , which adds up to the reason why Donald Trump would win the presidential elections this year. Ban all the Muslims from America , or whatever his plan is , it isn't my problem as I live all the way on the other side of the world . It wouldn't affect me much , and there's no way in my life that I would even consider joining Islam , so I'm pretty sure he'll allow me to cross the border into USA. 

" Not all Muslims are terrorists , but all terrorists are Muslim " .

Let me repeat myself once again , I'm in no means disrespecting any religion here - but if you feel offended or something , feel free to contact me and share out your own opinion on my Twitter mentions. 

This leads me to my next subject , Muslims. There have been many incidents since the Pulse Nightclub , but I haven't really followed up on recent news so I'm not aware of the full situation on things that happened in Turkey , Nice and many other places. Am I stating that Muslims did those ? No , I'm not. But let me get to the main point.

Pokemon Go was released a month ago , and it has been the biggest craze / hit ever since then. People have been going on a rampage all over the world , attempting to catch them all and looking to become the best Pokemon trainer of all time. The craze was expected , considering that most , if not all of the players that were anxiously waiting for the game to be released , grew up watching Pokemon and playing the old classic card game.

What do Muslims have to do with Pokemon Go ? Well , I'm not a huge Pokemon fan to begin with , but I sure do want to play Pokemon Go. It gives me a really valid reason to get out of the house and walk all over searching for Pokemon , which means that I would get a lot of exercise - which is good for everyones health. In the meantime , you get to play a pretty sweet video game while doing so - which is a win-win situation. 

But some Muslims in Malaysia (and outside of Malaysia) think otherwise. These are the people that stain this country , turning it into one of the most self centered and autistic countries in the world , in the state of the management system alone. I don't really have to cover up on the 1MDB issue or anything , as it's all over the news these days.

Now let me just cut you off there , you utter disappointment of a human being . You admitted to know little to nothing about the video game , and you're just going to head straight to the conclusion that it condones gambling among Muslims . Oh please , have some valid context before even stating anything from here on . 

Yes , the game can become addictive , but if you're someone who knows their own limitations , you wouldn't cross the boundaries on when it comes to a video game. Yes maybe Mew Two spawned inside the meeting room , but if you're responsible - you wouldn't barge in with your smartphone in your hand , swiping at the screen...hoping to catch that Pokemon. What am I even saying ? It's Mew Two. I could find another job , I want that Pokemon !! *cough*

I also stumbled upon another interesting post while researching for my content above , containing the same autistic critter , about cinemas being illegal and stuff. 

http://www.themalaymailonline.com/malaysia/article/perak-mufti-wants-end-to-cinemas-claims-muslims-only-go-to-beromen

I could go on writing for hours , only for you all to read it within a few minutes , so I'll skip it short and just add one final pointer, and that is this handsome Devil. And yes , I mean that in a really sarcastic term , as this human piece of trash looks ugly as hell.

Same thing works for Symmetra. It's an entertainment and she's a character in a video game. If the Goddess skin is too revealing or something for that particular person to handle for his own sake , then what does he have to say about this ?

So I've been busy lately , living a life where I am feeling more insecure than I used to be. Severe depression , as my mum called it while we were talking on the phone last night , and she's not entirely wrong about that. 

Life could be a roller coaster , or it could be a really bad highway full of traffic lights , stop signs and cops pulling you over every now and then for identification and possibly to check if you're DUI . The point is that things don't go smoothly all the time , and sometimes it never does. You either endure it all by yourself , seek help from everyone you know , or just end your life . Those are the only three options , and I've attempted the third one , while I'm currently fighting on enduring the first. 

What about the second ? Well , here's the little fairytale about the second option. I've learned to cope on my own , at least for a starting point. Seeking help from my family members for the small delusions and nightmares my existential mind goes through day by day would be pointless , as they're too feeble minded to understand my thoughts. Believe me , I've tried talking to them about it once and they really just couldn't be bothered . See how retarded a family can be ?

We're growing up really fast . At least I am though. There are some days where I'd just imagine being able to travel back through time to those times where I was a naive little boy that expected life to be a smooth sailing ride . Oh how wrong I was back then.

I'm currently jugging on the facts where I would give it all up to start over , somewhere far away where I could live my dreams . Because at the end of the day , regardless of the prospect , I will make it in life . I'm not the type to only have such small dreams to work in a company , being behind a desk for my whole entire life . I believe that the amount of shit I've been through my whole life , although means absolutely nothing to me , could be a guide for someone else. I'm willing to bet that there are people who are fighting a fight way worse than mine and suffering in silence that I don't know about , and I want to help those people.

I don't hate people in particular. I just hate this family . Family gatherings are the worst , as there's literally nothing to talk about , and no one to talk to. Considering that I now have a valid driving license  and keys to a car , I can escape all the harshness of this pathetic system where it's almost compulsory to attend all these lame events . I'm not close to my cousins , and they're mostly all overseas , and everyone else is just plain too old for me to even try to start a conversation with. In the end , the only thing I hear uttered from their mouths would be " I love your hair Greg , is it natural or did you perm it ? " It's natural , it's always been natural . Please get it into your brain and stop asking me the same thing every bloody time we meet up.

At the end of the day , I'm just a teenager with a few billion issues , and it could either haunt me or haunt the people around me. I'd rather explode by myself , than even considering that someone would even bother to understand me. I've tried , didn't go too well. Great job family , you fucked up.

People like returning home , because it's a fun place and you're really familiar and fond of its surroundings. You might have a pet dog greet you when you enter the house , or your cat that just doesn't care. Or that fish tank that you're required fill up with fish food in a few minutes. 

Then there's your siblings ( if you have any ) , your mum and dad , and possibly your aunt , uncles and grandparents. Most people would love to see them and have them around , then there's me. I don't despise them or anything , but I'm not fond of them. What is my problem ? Let me explain.

There are a few types of people that I absolutely despise . There's the egomaniacs , the narcissists , the homophobic , and the totally religious one. I'll start in the order above.

Egomaniacs , there are a lot of them in this world , and in my family . Who are they , I won't mention. Typical egomaniacs would have tons of things to boast about , and are always showing themselves off based on the amount of "knowledge" that they claim to have , or they would show off someone else. These people couldn't care less about other people , as their own opinion or their significant others' seem to be more important than other people. And they're not even anyone special or anything. For once , could you shut up about all your stuff , as no one even cares ? You're boring , and no one even likes to talk to you in family gatherings as well . Or do you need a car to hit you so you get some sense knocked into you ? Shut up .

The narcissists , pretty much the exact same thing as the egomaniacs so I won't stress this one out further.

The homophobic ones , there are a lot of them in my family. Call me crazy , insane , " I require medical attention " , but I'm a very open minded person. I'm not the type of person who sees life as : 

Study hard -> Get a good job -> Get lots of money -> Die

Do you even see the logic in there ? Like , what kind of legacy would you even leave behind ? You just want to be a regular human working a day job every single day for a few decades ? That's extremely sad . 

I have big plans for myself , and probably doing something good for the human race - although currently I'm here , writing this blog post , and complaining about life and contemplating the existence of humanity , as per usual.

But back to the main topic , I believe in love . And it's not just a general thing , where a guy loves a girl , or an animal loves another animal , or a human loves a thing . Some people are born a differently. They're handicapped , or "special". They deserve love . They deserve going to prom and having a family with kids , just as much as normal people do. LGBT ( lesbian , gay , bisexual , transgender ) people also deserve the same amount of rights . But of course , the Queen of England is too retarded and too Christian like to see it that way , and pretty much for my mum and dad .

I'm not stating that I'm gay , or bi - but everyone deserves a chance. "In the Bible , God said...." well to Hell with that . If you're that small minded and insanely dumb , don't bother talking to me , not even for a bit.

Which brings me to the last pointer , the extremist of religious people. Of course , I'm not pointing everything to Christians , as other religions have followers that can be a little extreme , in a more serious manner . *cough* Islam *cough* . 

Having a religion isn't a necessity in life . In fact , there are so many religions in this world that it's so hard to choose. At the end of the day you could just end up worshiping Michael Jackson for all I care . "MJism" . For my mum , being a Christian means that we're all not allowed to have any sort of fun in this world. Like , all we're meant to do is to pray 24/7 to God. I'd rather just end my life and meet Him and face my judgment - which let's be realistic , it's not going to end well for me. 

Oh look a scary novel ; demonic. Oh look , hip hop music ; demonic. Oh look a horror movie ; demonic. Oh wow Power Rangers monsters which are basically human beings dressed up in costumes ; demonic. If this is how life is supposed to be in my mums perspective , then I'd rather be the disobedient son that I already am and live life with my sanity , and possibly my title as a human being intact.

Do you really think that the Earth and Earthlings is pure ? Everyone has made mistakes , and it would be an amazing move if aliens were to colonize this awful planet , and wiping out 7 billion people in the process. The world needs another Genesis incident , which is basically the Flood , Noah's Ark and all that stuff - which is the only thing that really interests me when I read the Bible because , a lot of people died. 

But these are the characteristics of some of my family members. But family gatherings in general - it's just plain boring. The only thing I ever hear from my family members would be : is your hair natural ? Let me explain .

My hair is seriously curly , and a LOT of people envy it in my family. I'm not sure why , but it seems cool to them so I'll just roll along with it. But that's really all I hear from my family members , as they're all consisting of the elderly. My cousins , they don't really socialize with me to begin with because I can't really click with them , and I don't intend on starting. In which concludes to me being on my phone for the whole time , waiting for the dreadful night to end.

It's always been like that , and it just will stay that way. Most of my cousins are overseas anyways so I'm literally the walking dead whenever I go for these lame family gatherings. I don't care whose birthday it is , it's gonna be boring . 

The good news is that I have a car and a legitimate driving license , so I can just bail and enjoy dinner with - myself as I'm a lonely person and no one really loves me. Yay !!

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It took me at least 4 days to just write this blog post. There was a lot of drafting , very little thinking , a lot of contemplating , tons of time wasting , no planning , and why are you still reading this ? Kidding . Bear with me here for a tad bit.

So I'm currently on my semester break , and the next semester begins in a week. Am I excited ? No I'm not. That's the beginning of my "bad news" section. Then there's the good news section , which I'll talk about first. 

So during my time off college , otherwise known as hell - I've just lazed around , relaxed and pretty much did absolutely nothing. I'm pretty sure that I've just been sitting in one spot for the whole time , which is where my laptop(s) , TV , and my charging plugs are. Heck , I'm so engrossed to technology that I basically just fall asleep in front of my laptop screen for most of the nights. Addiction ? Totally . Doing anything productive ? Maybe that one time where I searched up the cure to migraines. 

There is no cure to migraines , just keep up with your medication intake .

The good news would have to be next week . The first thing would be that I'll be heading off to Penang , which is a state a little far away from where I currently am , without my parents or any guardian whatsoever. I am going with my friends , and hopefully they don't get me killed as I'll be traveling with them during that time. I get to visit my grandma too , which I haven't seen in four years so that should be fun.

The whole purpose of the trip is because a bunch of friends from college wants to attend a concert , performed by Japanese artists which apparently are "very popular" , but I don't really care so I'm not going to be joining them. After all, Japan is weird , the people are weirder , and their music doesn't interest me - and I am an avid music fan of all genres . Although , there are two Japanese songs that I really like , linked directly below :

The second good news would be for myself , and perhaps for any Ariana Grande fans that are reading this. Her album , Dangerous Woman comes out in 10 days , and the songs that she has revealed so far are really impressive , so I'm totally psyched for the album .

I also got myself Overwatch , which is a video game that has been hyped for since last year , and the game lived up to the hype. Blizzard never disappoints .

Now for the bad news. It all revolves around one lecturer , and her pathetic jealous vendetta on me. I don't know what I did to tick her off , but she's always getting on my nerves. Maybe she hates me , or maybe she hates guys , or maybe I'm just overreacting , but in conclusion - I hate you , you hate me. Done.

She failed me. And by that I mean two of the subjects I enrolled into this semester. Yes , two subjects out of the five that I took . That's absolutely absurd . Plagiarism is a bad thing in college. You copy a few sentences off a website for an assignment and you practically get a zero for it , even though you did your referencing at the end of the thesis. So for instance , you're expected to look up the history of Google , but you cannot copy the facts on the web page , even with full referencing at the end of it - because you would fail the paper.

It's almost like taking an open-book examination but you cannot use the textbooks for reference. It's bullshit. Oh yeah hey , all this is referenced via my own personal opinion(s) on you , so sue me for plagiarism . I think you're a narcissist. The worst kind of them as a matter of fact. Your jokes are shit , you're only funny about 20% of the time , and everything else about you is just ridiculous. 

You spread "rumors" about my friends , and only claims to have heard it from "somewhere" , "sometime" , "someone" , "somehow" . Because - coincidentally someone was talking bad about my friends . And you have the audacity to mention that it's from someone else . Heck , even from the dean of the faculty ? Insane ! There are so many students taking this course , so why only blacklist 3 individuals ? A personal vendetta , that's my conclusion. Deranged psychopath , mostly me for my insane amount of grudge towards your sorry ass.

I didn't attend college to make friends , but that situation is inevitable. I can't connect with everyone , so you could befriend one person every day , but you'd make two enemies each day in return. Maybe the three of us are being targeted because we have a weakness , being incomplete in a certain aspect , or because we seem vulnerable to bullying. Well , we're not. You mess with one of us , you mess with all three of us. We ain't taking shit today , tomorrow , or even in the future , so give it your best shot.

This is the tenth Blog update in the ten-week assignment for college. So right after this post , there might not be new updates for a brief period of time. I'm putting my Blog life to the side for the moment while I focus on passing my college semester, Either way , enjoy the final post in the ten-week assignment

Growing up happens to everyone and everything , whether you like it or not. When you're young , you were dreaming about the day you'd be fully grown into a teenager , then to an adult. I'm pretty sure that you were really happy when you reached your tenth birthday. Don't lie , you were very happy to be double digits in age.

But now , you just want to become a child again.

You don't realize it when you're little , but you have the whole world to yourself. There really isn't many things opposing you , except for the conceptual fact that time doesn't slow down for anyone . These days , the 24-hour clock doesn't seem so 24-hour(ish) . Time can fly really fast , and that means that a day has passed. And another day passes by. Then another. Somehow , a whole year has passed by and you're one year older.

As you grow up , you face tons of things that could drag you down to the point of depression , anxiety and the feeling of giving up on everything and hoping that time could just be paused. The main thing about growing up would be to hit puberty , and that's when things start to change. If you're a guy , your voice cracks , your growth becomes rapid , you start growing hair everywhere and you'll have an interest in girls as your hormones starts raging. About this time you'd also find out that porn is a thing and that basically ruins your teenage life , in a way.

If you're a girl , you'd experience the very first period - which is not fun , I'm pretty sure of it. Besides that , you'd have your breasts growing with your hormones and stuff , and you'll start to like guys. This is also the part when girls actually become very dirty minded and start doing really dumb stuff that guys find super seductive and attractive. I don't think I need to explain further on this.

You'd have your first kiss , your first crush , your first date , your first boyfriend / girlfriend - basically your first of everything. It might seem fun and all but it gets very stressful , as you'd be very confused about what's going on and you're purely acting based on instinct alone. There really isn't much decision making to be done , so mistakes can happen - and that would lead to downfalls.

The dark side of being in your teenage years would be depression. Somehow , sometime , you'd face depression. The thoughts of being alone , being completely isolated and the fear of being left out starts to haunt you , and it's traumatizing. If you just broke up with your significant other , things can be a little worse. As for me , I required a lot of counseling when I was in my early and mid teenage years in order to keep myself intact and to think straight.

I was a very shy person - and I still am. I find it personally hard to approach someone to start a conversation , especially if it's a girl that I'm approaching because , I guess girls have very high expectations for a random guy to go up to them and start a normal conversation with. But I guess I still live with a high level of anxiety and insecurities.

I also figured out that there's more to life than just spending money to get a proper education in order to get a good job and have a smooth life. Earth is a miraculous creation created by The Almighty in The Beginning. I wanted , and still want to explore everything that mother nature has to offer . However , you need money to travel - so getting a job is inevitable at the end of the day.

But things have to go one step at a time , because with growth comes wisdom. I learn new things everyday and I meet new people , and I couldn't be more grateful for everything that I have granted to me right now. Growing up is basically all about gratitude , that you've been given a chance to grow up and life the one life given to you. Be grateful , and appreciate everything in life.

Have a great day , until I Blog again