I'll start off by stating that,the year is ending and I'm not looking forward to year 11,well obviously because of O-levels.I'm not confident at all that I would make it alive out of next year,because it's gonna be hell and hectic,which brings me to this -- I can't update my Blog daily anymore.I'm gonna change some schedules and I'll post it up soon.

I've always been the lonely one,always left aside by the corner because I lack human interaction,unless you're someone close to me.So,I'm not very popular in my school,but it doesn't really matter.I also have a weakness with girls - I completely freak out and my brain shuts down instantly.So I'd have to try and find the fastest way possible out of the conversation with the girl.It's even worse if I like that girl.

I have two sides,and I'm sure everyone else does.The inner you,and the outer you.The outer you is similar to physical,while the inner you is more focused on the mental.Most of the times my physical body reacts faster than my mentality,which sucks because I tend to make decisions I'd regret later on.

But if I do build up the courage to do something,my mentality takes over and you'd be messing with a spy or a love doctor (lol).

You might be questioning yourself as it why I'm talking about all this.Well,I'm 16,and I'm lonely.I don't have a girlfriend,and the girl I'm crushing on just takes me as a "very good friend" :1 .Fine by me though.Even if I were to confess to her - okay technically I did last year,but my physical body reacted faster and I chickened out,f*ck you old Greg. - I wouldn't actually have a really lasting relationship because 

1. O-levels is sh!t and that takes too much concentration on studies

2. It's only a year,so we might split up when we enter separate colleges

3. I might freak out again - so I'd kill myself it that happens

4. Her parents might say no (I know my parents will)

Being a "very good friend" is much better than us just being acquaintances,considering the fact that we never talked (ever) until last year ,after actually knowing each other since forever.We were in Boys Brigade (yeah it's weird how the named it Boys Brigade when girls join as well),we were in the same squad and the same platoon (I believe).We've known each other since Pre Junior to Junior and now we're in Seniors,except that I quit last year.

Also one more thing,no girl likes a fat person. NO F*CKING ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

+ she probably likes someone else 

I just watched Captain Phillips today and it was fantastic.It's also based on a true story so check it out.

And I bought my third album,Mindless Behavior - All Around The World !!!!

Sorry that I can't post pictures My Internet is being a dick.

“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other...Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever” 
― Dave Matthews Band

“You can talk with someone for years, everyday, and still, it won't mean as much as what you can have when you sit in front of someone, not saying a word, yet you feel that person with your heart, you feel like you have known the person for forever.... connections are made with the heart, not the tongue.” 
― C. JoyBell C.

“We’re all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you’ve been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. And it isn’t until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems—the ones that make you truly who you are—that we’re ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you finally know what you’re looking for. You’re looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person—someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, “This is the problem I want to have.”

I will find that special person who is wrong for me in just the right way.

Let our scars fall in love.” 
― Galway Kinnell